Stories by a Confused and Sleep-Deprived Teenager

As The Time Goes By

| As The Time Goes By |

It never really makes sense, does it?

The sickening realization that time flies by too quickly, that no matter how hard you try, you can't get it back. Before you know it, the moment's gone, and you're only left with a short memory of it.

The time you went to the fair with you friends? Your first day of school? The time you spent getting ready this morning? You can never go back to those moments, to those single points of time, ever again. They're gone, and you can't relive them. You can't go back to enjoy them again, you're just stuck with the memories.

You're stuck with the nostalgia.

Have you ever thought about a time in your life when you were genuinely happy? A point in time you would give anything to have one last taste of, to a point where it hurts to think about it? You're engulfed in the feelings of a time you didn't know you should savor, of a time you never thought you would miss.

But it's not like you're just reminiscing, you can feel it. You can feel the emotions and thoughts that were swirling in you head at the time, and each one has a different feeling. You might even miss it, those feelings you got, and your heart gets heavy thinking about it.

You might not even know what you're missing, but you feel empty, like there's nothing that can give you closure. You might miss a person, a feeling, or even ignorance. You might wish you could go back to a time where you were clueless, a time with no worries, because you didn't even know you had them.

But have you ever missed something so bad, your eyes start prickling with tears at the thought of it? That you wished you could claw at your chest to distract yourself from the emptiness you're feeling? Time doesn't make loss easier, it just makes it bearable.

Yet sometimes that isn't enough.

Don't fool yourself and let the time slip between your fingers, cherish it. You don't know how long it will last. Sometimes most of us are just 'dying to finish school', 'dying  for the weekend', or just 'dying' for this and that. Some people spent so much of their time 'dying' for something, that they forgot to actually live.

You should know by now that the time you waste now will never come back.

Maybe if you cherish each moment a little longer as you live it, then it won't hurt as much when it's actually gone. Maybe because you appreciated the time you have now, years from now you'll be more content because you got everything out of those moments that you didn't before.

It's something I've never really thought about until now. I've only recently realized how fast the time goes by, and how clueless I really am to it. I often find myself thinking, "Woah, that was 2 years ago?" and, "Wait, I could've sworn it was more recent than that". 

Most of the time, the nostalgia is nice, but as you fall deeper into it, it's hard to escape it.

Savor every moment you can now, you won't know how much you'll miss it until it's too late.

~*~

Listen to the piano cover I posted on the side, or even look up the original, I swear you won't be disappointed.

It's a really nostalgic song for me, really. I just wanted to share a little bit of myself and what went into this writing.