Flicker Fade (DISCONTINUED)

Prologue

Hey all! This is just a quick introduction to the author. My name is ships-ahoy. I started writing this fic a few months ago on a whim, and then I forgot about it. Well, now I'm gonna try and finish it because i have nothing better to do other then write gay fanfiction. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

before I get started I just want to say things that occur in this story that may be triggering to some readers.

-Abuse

-Depression

-Self Harm

-Teenage Runaway

Lets begin the heartbreak.

The day was finally here. Mikasa and I had spoken about it for a few weeks. She had talked, and talked about it until I gave in and said I'll do it. I never wanted to think this, but Mikasa was probably a better parent to me than my parents ever were. We walked up a flight of stairs and down a long white hallway, the clicks of her heels were the only sound. At the end of the hall we reached a door with a sign that read, "Group Counselling".

Mikasa stopped to look at me. "Are you ready?"

I nodded.

We walked, closing the door behind us. I examined the fairly small room and eye'd up the circle of chairs and people. A couple familiar faces stuck out to me. Specifically one; who could forget those big blue eyes, blonde hair.

"Hey, Armin!"

He quickly popped his head up,a smile lit upon his lips. "Oh hey, Eren!"

His eyes quickly averted to my sister, who was standing beside me. "And Mikasa!"

She smiled at him but kept quiet. We quickly took our seats in the group circle. On each chair had one of our names on it. I took a seat in my chair; which unfortunately was next to the leader. I looked to my right and saw the group leader crossing his legs and look over the clipboard in his hands. He lifted his head and examined all of us in the circle.

"I'm going to do attendance, when I call your name, say "here", alright?"

People began the nod their heads. The man cleared his throat.

"Eren J."

"Here"

He then continued to spout out the names of us in the circle. After he finished he looked over to me.

"Eren, would you like to start today's session by introducing yourself and saying your story?"

My hands were frigidity as I replied with a simple "sure"

The room went silent as the circle of people waited for my voice to enlighten their ears. I took a deep breath as I looked to Mikasa. She nodded, giving me the okay.

"Go ahead, Eren. It's okay"

"My name is Eren Jaeger. I'm 20 years old and I'm here for a recent attempted suicide-" From the corner of my eye I saw Armins face drop. "I guess the story starts back 4 ish years ago. His name was Levi"

Mikasa cringed and looked away. She's never liked him very much.

"We met when I was 15 and in a few months I'd be 16. He was 25. At the time we met, I was a new sophomore, and my parents had recently gotten divorced, so Mikasa and I bounced back and forth from our mother to our father"

My voice froze as a particular memory of my parents popped into my head.

"Grisha, how many times do I have to tell you? Disciplining children is not hitting them!"

"Than what is, Carla? Letting grow up and end up like you?"

The yells were cut short of the sound of his hand slapping her across the face.

"Please continue " the group leader advised.

I quickly wiped the one of many memories out of my mind.

"They fought a lot; my parents. Levi and I met in a doughnut shop. I was buying a doughnut, but I was a dollar short. Levi was next in line so he lend me some money; I said thanks, and then we sat down at the same table and talked for a while. I wouldn't say he was nice, he was kinda mean really. But I found him interesting. He never seemed like a creep at all-"

I looked over to Mikasa, "And he still doesn't"

"One time I ran away from home. I had debated a lot,but one day I snapped and I packed a bag, and I ran away. Levi was the only one I had trusted-"