Love of sadness

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I should start from the beginning. It was all when she asked him out. "Hey Lucas..." Maya said twirling her hair. "Hey Maya." Luca said with his cheeks turning red. "So I was wondering if you wanna. Go on a date with me." Maya said. "I-I would love too!" Lucas said excitedly. "Ok tonight." Maya said then she kissed his cheek. Maya walked away.
A few days later Riley found out. "Maya! You knew I liked Lucas why would you do this to me?!" Riley yelled at Maya. "Do what this?" Maya asked then she grabbed Lucas bye the shirt and kissed him roughly. Riley ran off crying. I silently cried myself to sleep every night.
Two days later Maya and Lucas became friends with missy. Maya Luca sand missy would alway send me and Riley mean text emails calls and notes in our locker. I caught Riley cutting herself and drinking in her bed room. The thing is I do the same thing. Soon after school everyday we would both drink and cut together.
Six weeks later me and Riley took sleeping pills to make the pain go away. We were both crying our eyes out falling asleep when aggie came in the room with tear stained cheeks. I forgot to mention the same day that Maya asked out Lucas was the same day that Riley's mom left her and aggie. Riley's dad is always with a slut but he says that he is going to the school. We know because everyday he comes home late, has messy hair, and a kiss marks on him. Anyway. "R-Riley l- you know who that must not be named is here with the slut. They want you and farkle to hang out with them again and act like nothing happened!!" Aggie said between sobs. We are still not over that topanga left her children. "Thy said that's they wanted to hang out." Aggie said. "Tell them I said no..." Riley do without any expression. Aggie ran out. Me and Riley cried and cried until Aggie came back. "They are on the couches! They just came in and pushed me out the way. I got a scratch." Aggie Sao crying harder. Riley rushed and sat up with tear stained cheeks. "Come to me Aggie. Farkle go get me alcohol and band aids." Riley said. I ran and got everything that Riley said. While I was getting the band aids I found a picture. Of me her Lucas and Maya. I grabbed the picture and ripped it into millions of pieces. Then I ran to Riley. Riley was singing to Aggie. "I keep gonna to the river to pray cause I need somethin that can wash out the pain and at most I'm sleepin all these demons away but your ghost the ghost of you it keeps me awake. My friend had you figured out yeah they saw what's inside of you tryin to hide in another you but your evil was coming through. These guys sitting in the wall they watch every move I make bright light living in the shade you go hard makes the sprit shake I had to go through hell to prove I'm not insane I had to meet the devil just to know his name and that's were my love was burning yeah it's still burning. I keep gonna to the river to pray cause I need something that can wash out the pain and at most I'm sleeping all these demons away but your ghost the ghost of you it keeps me awake." Riley sang to Aggie. Aggie was probably tired and then he fell asleep. "I guess we better go see them so that they will go away." Riley said but I know deep down inside she was dying. Me and Riley walked out. While we were walking out I felt the tears running down my face. I was scared. And so was Riley. Riley was silently crying. I was Riley's shoulder. For now until I move to Louisiana. Do you know how far that is from New Yorki?! I have not told Riley yet. Finally we saw Maya and Lucas making out on the couch. I grabbed Riley's wrist before she could run. "Farkle don't make me watch. Please." She whispered. I could here her voice cracking. "Come on." I said. I guess they heard us because they stopped and looked up at us. Me and Riley walked near the couch. Riley was the first one to speak. "Get... The... Fuck... Out of... My house!" She said slowly. "Riley did you just curse?" Maya asked. "What happened to worthless piece of shit, dumb ass, idiot, shit head, bitch, whore, slut, and a lot more hu Maya?" Riley asked with the tears running down her face. "Calm down riles." I said. "What ever did we do princess?" Lucas asked. "You broke me! You hurt me." Riley yelled. "Why do you look so skinny?" Maya asked. She was about to touch Riley when I ran in front of her. "Don't touch her!" I yelled. "Why?" Maya asked with "you already cause enough pain!" Riley yelled. "Fine losers! Now your life with be a living hell!" Lucas yelled. They walked out. "Not before I make yours a living hell." Riley said. "Fake pack your bags we are going to Florida and Wisconsin. We are also going upstate." Riley said. "Why?" I asked. "Because. I have some friends. And tell Donnie barns to come back. We are going on a hell of a ride." Riley said. Oh boy.