Finding Love..

The News

I walk into the office expeting to be in trouble about the Katie insident this morning but I was wrong on many levels.
Everyone in the office seemed to look sad when I walked into the room. I look around confused that's when my Grandma standing in the principles office. She had dried tear stains on her cheeks and she looks like she is fixing to cry again. I run to her and ask her what's wrong and what's going on and all she says is
"I'm so sorry baby I'm soo very sorry..."
"Why?!? Why are you sorry tell me no one is telling me anything!!!!" I say in a worried voice.
She sniffles and says "didn't Luke tell you?"
"No he was to sad to bearly look at me and he wouldn't tell me why." I say still worried out of my right mind.
She sniffles taking a deep ragged breath trying to relax then she looks at me with tears in her eyes and says
" You daddy....he....he died in a car crash this morning at about 3:05am...and your mom....she didn't take it to well...she....she killed herself..."
I stand there frozen I can't move my whole body is numb...
I studder "I...but..but no mom was in the kitchen watching t.v. when I left....and dad he was at home before I fell asleep...no your lying!! This isn't happening!! This can't be happening!!!" I yell.
I ran from the office as fast as I could not able to believe the stuff they just told me. I make it to about the 2nd hall where I collapse with uncontrollable sobs. I feel familiar arms around me when I relize its Luke I turn to him and cry in his arms.
In between sobs I ask
"Why....why didn't you yell me.???.. "
"I just...I couldn't I didnt know how...I didnt know what to do...Macie I'm so sorry I didn't tell you." He said with tears running down his face. Seeing Luke cry shocked me. I've never seen him cry, he was stronger and able to hold out more...
I began controlling my sobs when I heard footsteps comming down the hall. I move closer to Luke not wanting to see anyone or anyone to see me.
He tightens his grip on me when he relizes what I'm doing. I peer over his shoulder and see the principle and my grandma heading toward me and Luke.
I start to pull away slowly when Luke looks at me. I smile a sad smile showing him I'm atleast a little okay. I look up at my grandma I can tell she has been crying sence I left, she looks at me and says
"Are you ready to go?"
"What? Where? Luke and I said at the time.
She sighs and says
" well you ain't going to live alone your only 15. Your going to come live with me and grandpa in the other side of Oklahoma."
I look at Luke, he looks like he's going to cry again. I hug him and start to cry. I look at my grandma and say
"No.... no no no I'm not ready!!! I can't leave him he is all I have left...." I say sobbing into his shoulder. He tightens his grip again this time I don't want him to let go.