Enemies? Not for long

Chapter 5

I stood back up, wiping away my tears with the back of my hands. I left the closet, walking past him. This is how my life will go on, no-one will ever notice me or my feelings. Great.

Right?

I sat in the living room, where's his slut gone? He really doesn't know his limits, does he? I don't get why I'm already living with him. We're only engaged but neither of us wear the ring. Maybe I should try and bond with him, I mean we are going to be together for life aren't we?

"Hey Jungkook " I asked. Seeing him pace back and forth in the passage. I know I said I 'hate' him but I can't stop talking to him. He's going to be my husband soon. Might aswell try and fall for him.

Even if that means falling for an asshole.

"What? " he scoffed.

Why is he being rude all of a sudden? A few hours ago, he didn't seem to be such an asshole.

"Oh, nevermind. It's nothing " I said, awkwardly leaving the living room. He sat down the second I left. I sat in the bathroom, where I have lived in for a few months. Once again, this is my apartment but like a prick he took over it. Why? I'm guessing him and Haneul are back together because that girl looked awfully familiar.

I sat on the ground, trying to entertain myself with nothing. Like what is so interesting about bathroom supplies? When I was younger, I always used to mix up the shampoos and put them in another bottle so it was 2-in-1. Half body wash and half shamp- Wait, why am I talking about this?

My plan about trying to stand up for myself and trying to bond with him, failed within less than 5 minutes, great.

I could hear the main door close and a woman giggle. Can he stop bringing other girls to my place? If he has a girlfriend, I'm going to find myself a boyfriend. But the thing is, who can I trust? I'm marrying Jungkook in a few weeks, can I find a boyfriend who has no problem with this fake marriage? Probably no. But I can try, right?

I stepped out the bathroom and headed to the door, getting stopped by him. Oh God. "Where are you going?" he asked, gripping on to my wrist tightly. "Out, why do you care? Hm? Your girlfriend's keeping you company, is there any need of me being in the apartment?" I smiled bitterly, wanting to slap him. He let go, going off to MY room with that girl. What made me disgusted, was that she stood only in an oversized t-shirt, teasing him by biting her finger seductively while leaning against my bedroom door.

God, men are weak.

I left the apartment and headed to a local bar. I ordered drinks which random men ended up paying for. It's good being a flirt at times but not so much when people are just drunk slobs, like ew. There was one guy that I liked. He went by the name Park Jimin. He seemed different compared to the other guys, I don't know what but something about him attracts me. We ended up spending the whole day together, ending the night in a club. God knows how we got there because I specifically remembering not getting in a car. Oh well, life is filled with mysteries, just need to figure out what they are.

"Do you want to go on a date sometime?" he asked, pulling me out to the car park. He leaned against the bonnet of a car (does he own it? or is he trying to seem cool?), with his arms around my waist. "I don't do dates, sorry lover boy" I said, patting his cheek. "Fine then, good bye pretty girl" he smiled pecking my cheek. I couldn't help but blush slightly before heading home. The only thing on my mind was seeing him again, I will. In a club, mall, park, I'll see him again somewhere. Trust me.

I entered my apartment building, it's eerily quiet but it is 2am so wouldn't it be dead either way? I grabbed my keys out and opened the door slowly. The living room light was on and I could clearly see Jungkook and his 'girl' watching together. Is there any point of being quiet? I entered the bedroom, finding the duvet on the ground, dressing table messed up. "What the hell?" I whispered to myself, I did not know having sex was this messy. Never done it so who am I to judge?

I should just move my stuff. I grabbed bunches of my clothes, throwing them into a spare closet that only I knew existed. I even took my private stuff out, why does it look like he's touched it? It's not anything bad, it's just my things. Like pictures and memories. The last thing I took out was a pair of pyjamas. I turned around finding him setting her down on the bed. Hah, starting from today blah..blah was all just lies. It should be me in that bed, not him or her.

I turned off the tv, heading to the bathroom. I locked the door and collapsed on to the ground. Will I ever find happiness? Everyone tells me lies. Why? It's not doing anything. It's not fucking helping. I laid on my back, keeping the lights on. I wish I could disappear and leave everyones lives. No-one would notice. I'll leave tomorrow then.

Not countries. Just hide and see if anyone notices. I charged my phone and changed into black jeans, checkered black and white loose crop top and black heeled boots. Yeah, I have a thing for black clothes. I tied my hair up high into a ponytail and left the house nice and early, hopefully un-noticed. If only I got possessed. That would be fun. I walked for hours and stopped as the weather got colder before turning back around and headed back to my town as the sky grew darker.

Eventually it began to rain, so I just sat in the park beneath a tree. Please just let me die in the pouring rain. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" Jungkook shouted at me. How did he find me? "Waiting to die" I said. He sat beside me. "Can I ask why?" I shook my head.

"You idiot, come let's go home" He stood up, pulling me up with him. Urgh. Why be nice now? "Home? You mean you and that girl's place?" I said as he pulled me closer to him so my back touched his chest as the umbrella hovered over the two of us. Did he track me or some shit? I'm beginning to get sick of men.

"You mean your apartment, she's gone home for good. I'm sorry..again" He said. I just walked away from him faster, freezing to death. He could see me shiver, making him hug me. Fuck my life. "Can you get off me?" I scoffed. "Not until you forgive me" "Fine, I forgive you. Now let go" I said. He did as I said. Before I knew it, we were stood in front of the door.

I went in, slamming the door shut on his face. I'm annoyed. He's a fricking twat with messed up emotions. Can he stop being a two-faced jerk? I changed into a grey jumper and skiny sweatpants. Do I sleep on the floor or the bed? I entered the bedroom, finding everything neatly packed away. But the thing is, they did it on that bed. Should I sleep there o- "Just go to sleep, I changed the covers already" he said, pushing me towards the bed before leaving the room.

I just believed him and fell asleep, hugging the warm duvet with my face dug in to the pillow. I could feel him get in beside me and hug me. It felt better to be honest, being hugged to sleep. I've already fallen for him, I'll admit that but I hate him as well. Is it love or hatred?

But the question is...

Does he like me?

TBC