New York

Chapter 5

*Tyler's point of view*

I fished my phone from my pocket and pressed the call button. It rung four times before a deep voice answered.

"Its done." There was a hard edge to my voice. I listened as he chuckled darkly and I could imagine his crooked grin.

"Good my boy." Then there was a click. I shoved my phone back into my pocket and left it at that.

I made my way outside and searched everywhere for Luka. She wasn't even in sight. I started to walk to my car when Jessica called my name. I turned around and watched as she walked towards me. I rolled my eyes and groaned.

"What are you doing?" her voice is so annoying.

"Nothing. Leaving." I waved her off and got into my car. She stood in front of it with her hand on her hip.

"You know daddy wont like you chasing after her. Remember Tyler, this is all fake. Your feelings aren't real for her and if they are, you need to get over it. She isn't going to be around much longer." I groaned laying my head on the steering wheel. I chose not to respond, Just thought how real my feelings feel for her. I started the car and pressed on the gas pedal. I watched her face as I backed away from her, I knew what was supposed to happen but it doesn't mean it has to.

I made my way to Lukas apartment. That's the only place I can think of where she would run too.

My thoughts drowned everything else out as I made my way there. I sighed while thinking about how she pulled away from me when I tried to comfort her. She was scared and hurt and it was because of me. Even how she ran from me a few seconds after that. I don't know what's going on with me either. I don't understand why i have decided to go through with this. I knew it meant more supplies and more protection but was it worth losing her? I've know her since we were babies. I've been in love with her since I was 3.  I grew up right next to her from diapers till I was 9. Even back then I was attracted to her, not only because of her looks but because she was the only girl in town that didn't fall for my fake charm. She rolled her eyes and walked away every time I tried to go near her. She was different in a good way even then.

I know she doesn't remember me though. I caught onto it when I asked her to talk to me, my first day back. She was so innocent back then. She never got into trouble and she straightened out everyone else who was around her. I guess that's why I left. I knew if I got too close to her, I was going to change. Even now I'm worried she has to the power to change me and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. I'm set in my ways of murder, drugs, money, and sex. It's all my life has ever been about. How am I going to change? Especially for someone I don't even know anymore.

These thoughts continue to go through my mind as I continue my way to Lukas. I just hope she'll let me explain. I sigh and hit the steering wheel with my palm. How could I be so stupid?

*Lukas point of view*

I stood there staring at Drew. I couldn't find my voice and I could feel my eyes open wide.

"Uh...Are you going to let me in?" His voice was soft.

"No." I found what little confidence I had left and stood straighter in front of him. I narrowed my eyes and watched his arm reach behind his neck out of nervousness.

"Luka, I'm..."

"No Drew. You don't get to apologize. You need to leave...Now." He sighed and had a pleading look in his eyes.

"Luka...I love you. Please let me explain what happened." He paused and waited for my response.

My heart broke all over again. Just like the first time...

The alcohol blurred my senses and the flashing lights and loud music made it difficult to see and hear. I walked around with a coke and vodka drink in my hand. I was laughing and having an amazing time with Drew. He had brought me here as his date but I've not seen him since he went to the bathroom. I bumped into some girl who had her lipstick smeared around her lips and messy hair. I giggle knowing what she did. At the time I missed how guilty her faced looked and how she quickly walked away from me. I shrugged and continue to search for Drew. I swayed my hips to the music as I continued to walk through the heavy crowd. Everyone was sweaty and drunk.

I walked up the stairs and knocked on the bathroom door. A girl's voice came from the other side and I narrowed my eyes. I huffed and walked further down the hallway, sobering up. I heard moaning from the other side of the door and stopped. I heard Drew's name slip from the girl's voice. I felt my blood boil and my jaw clench. I slowly turned the doorknob and let the door slam open. They both stopped and drew stood quickly not caring about everything being in view. I leaned against the door frame and smirked. The girl pulled the sheets over her body and put her face in her hands. I pulled my phone from my back pocket and snapped a picture. Once I lowered my phone, Drew had his jeans back on. He started to walk towards me and was already trying to apologize. I scoffed and flipped him off. I turned on my heel and walked back down the stairs and out the door.

I headed back towards my apartment. I had been with him for 2 years and he knew everything. He knew what happened to my parents and how I had raised myself. He knew how badly I needed someone because I had no one else. He was even living with me. He helped me out with everything. I thought I had finally found something stable.

I felt the tears threaten to fall. I wiped my eyes and turned my head away. I felt his hand cup my chin and force me to look back up at him. He used his thumb to brush the tears from my eyes and gently kissed my forehead.

"Baby, I really am sorry. I was drunk and I wasn't thinking right. I never would have done that to you. I've changed since then though. I've stopped drinking and partying. I changed for you."

I shake my head and pull away. "Leave me alone Drew. I don't want us anymore. You're done hurting me."

He watched me in disbelief and huffs in frustration. "Luka, please. I need you. I miss you."

I look at him through the tears and then see Tyler's car pull up. I groan and watch as he stalks towards Drew. He makes fists and his jaw clenches as Drew grabs my face between his hands. I retreat and step around Drew. I place my hands on Tyler's chest to stop him.

"No, what the hell is this Luka? We were just laid up in your bed last night and now you have another guy here? God..." He steps forward, his anger rolling off of him.

His body tenses underneath my hands and he looks down at me. His eyes soften once he realizes I've been crying. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer. He holds me for a second until Drew gains both of our attention again with a cough. 

"Sorry to break the love fest up but who are you and what do you mean laid up in bed last night? Luka, man I know you aren't cheating on me." His voice is stiff and accusing.

"Cheating? Luka you aren't dating this guy are you? No you can't be. Break with him, now." Drew holds me at arm's length.

"Ugh! Shut up! Drew, we aren't dating! You ruined that a long time ago." Tyler sighs out of relief.

Drew narrows his eyes as he watched Tyler pull me back into a tight embrace. I lay my head on Tyler's chest and sigh. The tears no longer threatening to spill.

"Luka, you know I'll get you back. Just wait." He smirks and walks to his car. I watch carefully. He hesitates before climbing in and driving off.  He leaves my skin crawling and an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach.