Michael's POV
It was pretty much a normal day for me so far. Unpacking all my stuff in a new house because my dumb, poor excuse for a mother thinks we need 'a fresh start'. Well we've had 4 'fresh starts' since dad left. I've gotten used to moving. It's not even that I don't like the houses, they are ok. Normally just middle-class colonial style homes.
Tomorrow I'm starting at Wayside High. What sucks is it's already the middle of the school year.
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I do my nightly routine, wash off all my make up, and get in the shower.
I undress and turn the water on as hot as it goes. I step in and instantly feel the burn of the hot water on my pale skin. My skin almost immediately turns read from the steaming water. But maybe if I take a shower got enough to burn me. It will wash away my ugliness, or my fatness, or it will wash the gay away. I always try but I can't wash any of those away and it truly sucks. I don't know why I am still even living. No one would notice if I left.
After about a good 20 minutes I hop out of the shower, dry off, and wrap the towel around my waist. I lean up on the bathroom sink. I stare at my face in the mirror, why? Why must I look like this? I think to myself. I shouldn't have died my hair pink. But I did and I'm not changing it. I have an ugly face. I actually look like a heroine addict. I back up and have my left side face the mirror. I suck in my stomache, even then I'm still ugly. I can't run away from how I really look. I can never escape this hell of a body I am trapped in.
I go to my room and throw on some sweat pants. I reach under my bed and pull out a small, pink, box. I open in and pull out what seems to be my only friend. When I felt bad it was always there for me. It comforted me in ways I can not explain. It is beautifully sharp, and it's metallic shine is so amazing. When I slice into my wrist I see my face reflect of the side of my blade. I make three more cuts because wow, I am ugly.
I clean off my cuts and slip into bed. My eye lids becoming heavier and heavier until I fall into a deep sleep.
