Although it ended pretty fast, I'm glad hes happy. I'm still gonna be there for him if he needs me and vice versa. It's gonna be hard trying to get over him though, my feelings for him are strong and I think they always will be.
The breakup wasn't the worst part, it was the fact that he didn't love me anymore. But knowing i dont have him to call mine anymore hurts like fuck. But he can't stop his feelings and I can't moan over it. I'm heartbroken, yes. And knowing he doesn't love me anymore kills me, but as long as he is always there for me is enough for me to get through. I still have our memories (-plays fall out boy hehe-) and our old conversations, and his shirt. Hehe.
I may be young, I may not know if this is 'love' but I do know my feelings for him won't change. He made me happy, fuck he still does. And that's all I need, his friendship with me means the world to me. I may not be his 'baby girl' and he may not call me 'beautiful' and he may not tell me I'm 'his' but I although it hurts I'm fine with us calling each other cunts and being goofs. Because I know at the end of the day if someone hurts me in any way he will hurt them :)
I will not delete him from anything, I will not block him and I will not stop talking to him. We may not be together anymore but he's still my little cunt. I'm still gonna post things of him, and tag him in irrelevant shit ahaha, I hope everything goes well for him, honestly. I'm hoping he thinks the same for me to be honest. He's my bestfriend and the thought of losing him breaks my heart.
And now comes the days, weeks and even months of heartbreak and trying to move on from him. I got my tissues and ice cream at the ready. Here comes the endless crying about how I love him and so on.
Ugh, I'm so not ready for this shit.
