If I have my mind set I will achieve my goal..
If I bring enemy's or friend's that's my own doing...
If I have mistakes that I made I will TRY to fix them....
If people talk about me I wouldn't really care...
If people don't believe me I wouldn't care..
But the people who betray,lie,and hurt,me..I have no comment on whatsoever this shit is..none of you can control me...none of you can make me obey you...but you just jump in the convo like it's no tomorrow...in the problems that people should just ignore....but you go ahead and try to figure out what's the problem...I do that to I will not lie...but if it's out of my league I leave it alone...I can be cold hearted and bitter...heh...reminds me of my mother...but what are trying to prove?....what's the point if that person doesn't want to act like you think they should?...will bringing more people to convince them to act the way you want them to be?...my answer is no...to be honest...it's kinda selfish...wanting other people to take care of your own mess...why?...why can't you just let it go?...but I guess they have the weakness from there curiosity to find out what happens in the end...trying to change the ending if we don't like it like we tend to do...but think of this...while your planning on trying to get YOUR happily ever after...what happens to that person you want to use as a puppet to be a part of your play?..no?...you still don't know?...well...that person is hurt...beaten to the bones and flesh..heart aching of the weight of lies,betrayal,anger, and sadness...they may have hurt that person in the first place and tried to build up there courage and strength to apologize for there mistakes...it takes time to develop courage and strength because that's how I feel...but no...they always have to rush...no time is added to there story...everything has to be exactly how they envisioned it....if they don't get what they want...they'll push there limits to the end...that person you want to use as a puppet...do you know what happens to them?....they get even more hurt then you can imagine...they get these messages trying to convince them to be a part of there play when they don't want to do it...it hurts....it feels like a dagger of pressure of all the pain you suffered being stabbed right in the neck and heart...its hard to breath...your heart feels like it's going to burst out of pain....that person's thoughts gets clogged up with things they know they shouldn't do...the noose...the knife...the medication..the water...the gun..the big drop...the railroad...the traffic...I can still keep going but I'll stop there...heh...its funny because they act nice to get what they want..ever heard of the saying "a wolf in sheep's clothing?" and "the devils doing?"...sounds similar with what I got...to be honest I may be a nice person...but I can be cold hearted and straight forward sometimes...I'm not talking to everyone of you but I want you to guess...who's the puppet who is forced to be played in the puppeteers play?....and who's the puppeteer who's a wolf in sheep's clothing?....I want you to take a VERY good guess...I don't want you to rush yourselves I just want you to guess...that's all I wanted to say before I calm myself down or just fall asleep with some meds...or maybe have a cut or two...probly won't be on for a while...I dunno...maybe I'll do it all...anyways I'm not in the mood to say bye in a happy way today...so bye..I guess
