My love for jaden smith

Day 24

Drama momma I smirked I was reading Kim and Kanye west's drama in an article I found. I laughed and got up from my bed. I went down stairs and poured some cereal in a bowl. I then go upstairs take a shower washed my hair and get dressed I put on A blue half way shirt showing my flat smooth tummy. And some high way shorts with some blue vans. I spread some gel on my hair and tied it back and headed down Stairs. As I headed down stairs I heard Jaden. Rapping yet I didn't hear alot. But he was mostly saying saying Starry. Or Sorry. I didn't understand it a lot but I didn't want to disturb him at this time he hates getting interrupted while trying to pour out his feelings.

I sat on the step that led down stairs and heard. I heard him sing. I heard him cry. Trying to explain that he is sorry for the things he had done. For the things that he tried to make right. And he knew he was wrong. That you'll always be his star. I started tearing up knowing he had a heart. A big heart for making a song trying to tell who ever that he is sorry. I got up but then the steps creeped. The music stopped and so did my heart.

Who's there?He asked softly.

"Me" I replied.

I headed down stairs to the music room and I saw his eyes they were red and puffy he was crying. Alot.

I ran to him and he put his arms around me, he laid his head on my shoulder and cried his heart out. I didn't know what happen Nor did I know why I liked this position. He finally stopped and cleared his throat.

"I had an Break up. That went bad. I wanted her to know I love her yet I love you, I didn't want her when you came back but" Jaden said.

I stopped him. I kissed him. He kissed back. We intertwined our fingers and I wrap my legs around his waist this right her felt good I loved him I can't stay away from him nor can I stop my self from showing my emotions off. We break apart and he sits me down on his lap.

"Sorry for your break up"I say

"It's okay" He replied.

Here We Go Again.... With the mixed feelings.

This felt wrong...

I stand and he pushes me back down then i Punch him and he sighs.

You're so over rated you know that?" Jaden says

;Over rated . Sorry my fault I didn't know being your sister was over rated I didn't know falling in love with you was over rated yet when I try to stay away from you I can't want to know why? Because I feel that when your not there I'm alone in the dark Over rated my Ass!!!! I screamed.

I felt tears but I fight to not show them.

Well, if that's how you feel then I won't even try anymore. He said getting up to leave.

Then he left and slammed the door.

I turned towards the music table and played his song.

It's called starry room.

When it was done I felt like that was a different him like he has a sweet side when he's hurt. I went into the room with the microphone inside and I started to sing. I sang with a beat . The beat that was in Marvin's room and starry room.  

Here right now I'm just crying and trying to tell you how now.

I'm trying to make it work but you never want to learn , so how can I show someone my emotions when they don't care?

I can't even bare my heart hurts like this it's broken And when my heart lifts in the air and you decide to hold it with no cares... Yet I'm sorry for showing off and trying to throw you off But I can not forget my lies that protect them buy crying in the night... the lies they seem alright but it's all okay... You seem to be alright with my mistakes my love have grown faster but I can't say I love you yet..

(The lyrics that I sang)

I walked out even madder then when I went in. I am mad at my self for loving him.... That's all I can say...