Benefits with Justin Swanson

Chapter 4

Here I am with Justin Swanson. We are here in Yopop in silence. God I wish I was at home, Justin looked at me and ate his frozen yogurt. "So uh, are you mad about what happened last year." Was I mad? I was completely mad. He saved my life and he ran away. Who the hell does that?

"You ran away after you beat him up." 

"Look I'm sorry okay, I was just checking up on Gabi to see if she needed anything." "So you think she's more important?" He didn't respond. So I got up and left the shop. I had to walk 2 miles until a car pulled up. I kept walking until Justin got out of the car and turned me around. He got a little closer and stopped.

"Are you mad at me?"

"Yes. Now, let me go."

"No, just come over to my house and I'll explain everything to you." He holds on to my hand. I wanted to go home but he was holding my hand too tight. So I nodded and we went in his car; we drove and made it  to his house. We went into his room and we watched TV. Until he looked at me. "Look, so I wanted to tell you something. I really am sorry about last year. This happened to my ex Celeste. She was beaten up and I saved her. Even though I didn't save her after I ran away, at least I save her before." I couldn't respond. All I did was look away; we were in silence. I was going to leave but then I waited for him to talk.

"You should know that your not the only one who has a problem. Mines is ten times worse. I smoke, I have no father, and I do drugs." I started to cry. "You don't know nothing! You don't know the pain I feel! You got me here listening to your ex and shit, and you want me be to be on the list! You see I hate you."

"You hate me?"

"Yeah."

"You-."

"I saw my uncle got shot, my mom and dad divorced and I am no longer his little girl! I have no one and..." I stopped and continued to cry. Then I got up and went to his rooftop. I was almost about to fall. So this is it. Here I am going to die. But then a shadow was behind me, it was Justin. He grabbed my arm and carries me. But I bit his arm. He lets go. I waited to take a deep breath. Then, his arms were around my waist.

"Please don't do this!"

"I want to!!!"

"No!" Here I go, I jumped and hit into the ground. My head was in pain. My eyes went black. But when I was unconcious, I lived. Turns out that Justin's house was only a one level. So, my body can't get up but I lived. Someone grabs me and puts me in the couch. I looked and it was Justin. No! "Thank goodness you're alive."

"No, this can't happen. I was suppose to die, damn it!" I was upset and tired, "I'm going home." I gathered my stuffs and went walking. When I made it home and opened the door, the phone rung as I answered it.

"Hello? Hey Vera. No why? What? No she didn't tell. Okay, Vera. Bye." I hanged up, threw the phone on the couch. I went to the kitchen and banged the table in front of mom. "Why didn't you tell me that dad went to jail?" My mom took a sip of her drink and was silence.

"Cause I didn't want to put you in danger."

"Well guess what? I hate you and it's all your fault." I walked away and slammed the door harder. I began to cry until I grab a knife and cut myself on the arm. 6th scar. I put the knife away and grabbed my laptop; I went on my blog and started a new story.

My life is fucked up!!! I just found out that my dad is in jail because he was convicted of murder. My dad teaches me how to defend myself, now look what happened. This is my worst nightmare. All hero's please apply. >:(

I pressed post until I got a comment from Justin. It said "Wow, you must be mad." I wrote back "No shit Sherlock." Then I pressed post. It was unbelievable finding out about my dad in jail. Starting Saturday, I'm going to visit him and get him some food so he wouldn't eat old rotten food. I dialed my dad's number. It's ringing.

"Bueno mija."

"Papi, porque estas en el caser?"

"Mija, perdona me esque estava matando jente que me queria matar me. Mija, yo te amo. El sabado vas a venir?"

"Si papi, buenas noches. Te quiero mucho papi."

"Yo tambien." Once my dad hung up, I turned around and saw Roberto.

"What?

"You're really going to Portland?" "Yes, now leave before I kick your ass." My brother left. Andy came in my room and puts his arms around me. "Hey beautiful." Did I not mention that ever since my mom and Andy got married, he has been touching me since he moved in. "Where's mom?"

"Shhh, she left to work." He took of my jacket and threw me on the bed. As I was laying, he was on top of me, kissing me on my neck. I cried as he raped me. I didn't want to go through with this anymore, I try to punch him but he'll rape me even more. I laid there until he took off my bra. Oh no! I punched him in the stomach and ran out of the house and to Justin's house. I rang the doorbell, he opened it as I hugged him with relief. "Thank you!!!"

"What happened?"

"My stepdad raped me."