You know that ache in your chest? Heart break maybe. It feels like your entire heart is going to jump out and hold on to the thing you need the most. I've felt that way for far too long.
To understand, we have to go way back, like ten years back. Before Bronx, before Ashlee, before all the lovers with no time for me. Back into the summer of 2005. The summer full of ice cream, water parks and hot kisses. My mummified teenage dreams.
He was my friend, best friend, lover, encourager, early morning company. But I can't help but ask myself the "what if"'s what if we worked out, what if we never happened, what if I was stronger. I'll never know.
I don't regret the summer, I regret how it turned out. Because we could've made it. We could've been happy... if it were just any other summer. But it wasn't. It's done. Now all I have to tell you it's what happened. From my side.
I love... loved... him. But sometimes that's not enough.
But the story is a happy story. Don't be fooled by the shitty outcome. Though the piece ended on a bad note, the song was still beautiful.
We, him and I, have been here forever. And here's the frozen proof.
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Thanks For The Memories
FanfictionSometimes the memories are too much to bear. He misses him. The boy that made him fly. Years after Warped Tour 2005, Pete recalls his best memories.