what was I thinking? ?????

Observations

The rest of Science and English dragged on, I was getting a feeling Justin wasn't the bluntest knife in the draw.

.In the school's compulsory phys ed for the week ,while me and the girls were'free styling',the urge to peer at the football players arose. Justin was there next to Zachary, who seemed to be pushing him. Weird he doesn't usually push that hard .Justin stood his ground though. he looked a little out of place some how.

.Of course the cool girls were not into releasing their inner weirdo, so were just watching the football players .This resulted in firstly Zachary, then the rest, taking off their shirts to show off abs of steel. Justin didn't care it seemed as he remained covered, and focused on the game rather than the participants and audience. I couldn't help but feel disappointed for some reason, probably cause im nosy and like comparing.

"Maddy, its our song! "Emily, Ann and Jenny shout in unison. I spin to face them as I hear it.Crazy Beautiful by Andy Grammer.All four of us launch into full out dancing and facials to match the music.The blush began to rise on the girls cheeks as we remember where we are, mine doesn't because I'm past caring .My capacity to be embarrassed passed along with my sensibility. Lifes too short. I had missed my antics with my friends, I mean weird is interesting. Why be boring and normal when you can be weird and interesting! . My life motto.

"Man, why did you date that wacko? "
"Im happy I got out while I could! " Tears sting at my eyes, and I walk out towards the toilets. Just as I pass Brittany and her squad I hear"What did he ever see in her! ??, shes a nutcase"followed by well rehearsed laughs.I run . My friends don't follow, they know not to.I'm not a cryer, I only cry with frustration/ anger or fear which means its a rarity. I reach the gym bathrooms, the red walls fueling my mood as I collapse on the floor in a cubicle why did I date him? , did he actually like me? Love me? Care?
Abs equals arrogance! Why did I ignore that fact? For a guy? Rattling off to myself, I stop when I hear the door creak, peeking out to see Who's
there, no one. I then proceed to rumage through my bag for lunch an orange slice! Yes! I place the fruit in my mouth and scream, the noise muffled by the fruit. I screamed until there was no fruit left just skin.Splashing my face with cold water and drying it, I walk out of the bathrooms/changing rooms looking as if nothing happened, no emotion visible on my face.everyone holds slight looks of confusion at my lack of emotion. Except Justin who is smirking, a knowing look in his eye. Whats that about? Im going to find out! then the bell rang.Damn?!