Dear Diary ,
First/Second Day Of School Was Good. I Wish I Had More Friends Tho , Ariyone Is A Chill Chick But I Only Have Her In My 1st ,6th And 4th Class Periods So I'm Mostly Quiet. Until Jah'Daviahn Speaks , Then We Get To Conversing About Different Things. He's Really Sweet And His Personality Is Dope . I Can Tell He's Feeling Me But I'm Cooling Right Now , Besides What's A Darkskin Doing With A Lightskin ? ...Well , Ttyl
~Tyh'Nahri Xenise Bell
I Closed My Diary And Hopped In The Shower . I Washed My Hair And Scrubbed My Body . I Brushed My Teeth While Letting My Hair Air-Dry A Little Bit .When I Was Done With My Teeth I Grabbed My BlowDryer And Started Drying My Hair .
"You're Beautiful Inside And Out " My Grandma Said Entering My Room. She Always Compliment Me But I Don't Know How To Take Them . I Guess Compliments Aren't For Me , You Could Tell Me I'm Pretty All Day Long But If I Feel Otherwise ,It Won't Matter . "Thank You , Granny" I Smiled .If I Wouldn't Of Thanked Her , She Would've Given Me A Lecture About How I "Should Feel Beautiful" And How "Proud" She Is Of Me .
"Child , You Shouldn't Doubt Yourself .You've Always Been Beautiful , So What You've Gotten A Little Darker Than Your Elementary Years ? The Darker The Berry , The Sweeter Juice ! Be Proud Of Your Skin Color " That's Easy For You To Say , You're A Beautiful Brownskin ! You Could Pull Any Old Man With Your Skin And Personality ,Is What I Wanted To Say But Instead "Granny , I Gave You A Genuine Smile , How You Know If I Wasn't Accepting Your Compliment?" I Asked .
"You're Smile . You Have A Lot Of Work To Do , Boo "She Laughed. It Was True My Fake Smiles And Laughs Were So Lame . I Can't Fake Anything Real . If I'm Not Interested Or Don't Know How To Take The Situation Then I'll Try My Best To Smile Or Laugh . But It Won't Be As Good As My Original Smile Or Laugh. There Was Constant Snapping Then I Realized Granny Was Trying To Get My Attention .
"See .You Were Overthinking Yourself , Weren't You ?" She Questioned I Replied Yes And She Gave Me A Tight Hug Which Accidently Made My Towel Unravel To The Ground. I Nervously Turned To Pick It Up . "Oh Girl Please. I Changed Your Diapers You Know " She Started "I Know You Have Junk In The Trunk " I Erupted With Laughter ! She Didn't Just Go There !
"Alright ,Granny. I Have To get Dressed And Eat Before Rashad Gets To Whining " I Kissed Her Cheek , She Kissed Mine And I Started Getting Dressed.
"What ? You're Up And Ready ?" Rashad Teased , As If I'm Always Dragging Him Down . "Boy Bye , I'm Always Up . Doing Something You Don't Do "
"And What Might That Be ?" He Asked In A Dramatic Way . I Looked Around The Dining Room Area To Make Sure Gmama wasn't Around To Hear Me Swear And When I Found She Wasn't , I Went Ahead
"Washing Your Funky Ass , Like Seriously Yo .It Wouldn't Hurt To Wash Ya Nuts Before School "I Spat .
"Wait A Minute, Slow Ya Roll Now ! I Wash My Nuts Daily . If I Were To Drop My Draws This Instant ,Each And Every Single One Of My Ball Hairs Would Be Perfectly Trimmed "He Said Proudly, Getting Louder Than Intended . I Laughed As I Heard Granny Making Her Way Downstairs. "I Assume Y'all Are Done With Breakfast Since Y'all Are Up Swearing And Talking About Genital Hairs " She Said Not Too Happily
"It Wasn't Me " We Both Said In Harmony . "Quit All The Lying && Swearing In My House Before I Get On Y'all Asses ! && I Mean It . Y'all Aren't Too Grown For An Belt To Be On Ya Ass" She Yelled At Us Visciously . I Find It Hilarious That We ,Children , Can't Swear But She Can Swear While Telling Us Not To . What Kind Of Shi- .. I Mean Ish Is That ? Black Folks And I'm Not Referring To Skin .
"It Was All Rashad's Fault Tho .Dude Started Being All Sarcastic And Shit , As If I Don't Get Up On Time So I Decided To Give An Appropriate Response " I Stated "I Mean , It Just Wouldn't Be Right To Leave Him Hanging .. That's Disrespectful "
"Y'all Are Something Sickening " Ariyone Said While Sadly Looking From Shawn'Drae To Her Phone . I Can Honestly Say I Feel Bad For Her . I Know The Feeling Of Being Rejected , Not Over A Dude Because I Could Care Less About A Nigga But Because Of My Features . She Wants Him To Give Her A Chance At Their Happiness , Similarly To Me Wanting To Find My Happiness Without Being Discouraged About The Color Of My Skin Or The Feet And Inches Of My Height .
Shit Aint Cool , I Guess That's Why I Don't Bother Going To Our School Football Games Or Parties That Are Thrown Or Anything I'm Invited To. I Don't Like Steping Outside Of My Comfort Zone Because I'm Scared Of Rejection . "Hey ,Give It Time . In The Mean While I'll Help You Out " I Smiled At Her Trying To Lighten Up Her Mood.
The Boys Looked At Me Like I Was Crazy But That's Because They Don't Know I Have That Couple Advice .And I've Broken Couples Up (Delivered The Message ), Put Couples Together && Helped Them With Their Relationship Issues .I Must Say I'm Pretty Good At This So I Got Her
"That Nigga Is Not Worrying About Her And I Ain't Trying To See Her Get Hurt .Especially Not By My Roll Dawg"Said Lexis. I Understand Where He's Coming From , He'd Be In The Middle Because Ariyone's His Sister But Shawn'Drae's His Homie
"Why They Staring ?" T Said . We All looked Over And it Was That Girl From Second Period . Her And Her Squad Was Eyeing Us Down. If Looks Could Kill We'd Be Dead ! "That's Just Mishell And Her Herd Of Hoes.They Always Gossiping With Their Messy Asses" Ariyone Said Mugging Them All ."I Was Just Saying , I Know I'm Goodlooking But Dayummm . At Least Speak To A Nigga 'Cause Staring Ain't Gone Get It " T'Auvion Said Rubbing His Chin
"I Have Her In 2nd Period . She Almost Got Her Ass Handed To Her , Yesterday " I Spat Viciously ."Word ? What Happened ?" Rashad Asked . "Well After Ariyone Showed Me Where To Go , I Went And Told The Teacher I'd Be In Her Class And This Bitch Gone Comment On My Skin Tone . Not Even 5 Minutes Into The Lesson ,Yo ;Then She Kept Speaking Out Of Term Like I Wasnt Gone Pop Off On Her Ass " I Said Vibrating My Leg
"Chill Ma' Rashad Said Trying To Calm Me Down . They Just Don't Know I Could Seriously Fuck Her Up , Especially About My Skin . She Better Be Thankful I Took My Meds Before I Came To School Because Hunna-BabyChild , She'd Be In The Hospital
"Peep That Leg Tho " Shawn'Drae Chuckled "She Was Finna Floyd Mayweather Ole Girl" Everybody Laughed "Just Hush , Shawn'Drae" I Said Pushing On Him
"See Look , She Already Trying To Abuse Me ! I'm Scared To Breathe" He Said Making Himself Shrink . I Laughed
"Mrs.Johnson , Mrs.Johnson " Jah'Daviahn Said Copying Bernie Mac From Friday . I Looked Around To See Mrs.Davenport && Laughed "You Know That's Not Her Name Right ?" I Questioned Him "Her Name Don't Matter.Its That Banging Body " I Was Kind Of Disappointed To Hear Him Say That . I Thought Was Better Than The Rest Of These Dirty Dogged Niggas But I Wrong
The Guys Agreed And Gave lustful Looks While Me And Ariyone Rolled Our Eyes And Started Talking About How Niggas Just Want What's Between Our Legs And If We Were To Do The Things They Did , They'd Shit Bricks And Call Us All Names In The Book . "That Ain't True " Lexis Chimed In ."Yes It Is . If A Female Was To Cheat On A Nigga , She'd Be Considered A Hoe And Everything Else ; But If A Nigga Was To Do So , He's Just A Nigga So He Gets A Pass "
"Exactly . And It Aint Right How Niggas Do Females , Y'all Want Us To Hold Y'all Down While Y'all Go And Fuck These Boppers !" Ariyone Said Backing Me Up
"But There's A Difference. When We Cheat , We Mess With Bitches We Just Want To Fuck But Females Fuck With Niggas That Could Replace A Nigga "
"That's The Point ! Why Would We Fuck A Nigga , Just To Fuck Him ? If We Have A Whole Nigga We Can Do That With ?" I Said Getting Mad "That's Stupid , Y'all Niggas Always Thinking With Ya Dicks . That's Why Y'all Loose The Right Girls For These Li'Hoes That Don't Give A Damn " I Can't Believes These Niggas Really Saying This .
The Bell Rang And Me And Ariyone Stormed To First Period
