Water Dries 2.0 | Cash

:04 Never Dumb

Now I feel completely eh, at the idea of being this close to Nash while he's about to get married. I just want to touch him and everything.

He says we're going to this up front beach resort. It's a boardwalk with a ton of different attractions and were aloud to take this boat around as well.

"Oh and I want to talk to you, like, when we get there." Nash whispers to me then backs away and gets closer to Taylor.

We arrive on the scene and everything looks amazing. There are twinkling lights, the aroma of fancy barbecue meat, and a line for certain games and events.

"So guys. Bar is that way. I'd love for all of us to take a quick shot then a photo booth photo then I'll let you guys roam off this amazing island. We can do it together or you guys can lurk and I'll meet up in between." Nash raised his hands happily and points at the liquor.

We all round ourself in a circle, prioritizing Nash as we all have our small glasses that the young lady served us. "Oh. Smells intoxicating." I sigh. I look at Shawn and Nash, remembering that they don't drink but I'm certain all the guys do and I know it. Oh. I've lessened.

"On the count of three!" Nash yells.

"One..." "Two..." "THREE!" We all shout.

And from there my elbow raises as I lift it up and the liquid flows down my throat. Feeling, sharp and tingly.

"YES! YOU BACHELOR." Matt shouts and pats his back. We all clap and huddle, rocking Nash back and forth.

I was happy, this makes me happy. I enjoy seeing him look the happiest he can be. Although it hurts, knowing he isn't marrying... me.

"Alright guys. I need to talk to Cam! Meet with you guys soon." The guys wave and just as I'm about to follow Nash, Shawn grabs my arm and Matt grabs Nash's.

Shawn gives me a dumbfounded look as he furrows his eyebrows. "You sure you aren't going to do anything stupid?" Shawn glares. "I promise, I am sure of it." His arms go over shoulders. "Okay.. I trust you." We let go and I give him that last sure look before turning away.

"Haha, why did Shawn look so angry?" Nash asked. "Oh. He's still just as overly protected as before... gotta love him." I smile weakly, I did love him. And I still do, just not the same way as before because I'm still hung up on Nash. "And you?"

"Oh Matt... same problem. Wanted to make sure I don't, do anything dumb." He used the phrase with hand quotes.

"That's what Shawn said exactly! It's cool how our best friends care but, why do they think we would do such a thing?" I sigh walking along the beach with Nash.

"Well... do you ever think you're making the wrong decision sometimes?" I looked to the ground wondering where this conversation is going and what does it mean to him.

"Yes." I sighed. Lightly. One comment because I couldn't go any further.

"Well. I agree. But uh, lets. Man, this is hard for me. Is it for you? I'm trying to push everything away but I can't..." Nash sighs.

"You have to stop. You told Matt you wouldn't do anything dumb. The dumbest thing you can do is to spill your feelings out to someone who doesn't care!" In that moment I realized, my words came wrong and I may of messed everything up.

"You don't care?"

"Nash." he didn't run away like the past, he actual crossed his arms and just stood there, looking at the waves. "What I meant was, well, I do care. I just can't care too much because I don't want to get too attached. The past is behind us but the memories will never go away. I still love the boy who I met when I looked at your mail, then we moved in across each other, the one I completely did not see coming into my life. Who knew we would end up together after all my failed relationships." I giggle.

"Shawn, Matt, what else..." He asks jokingly, "Oh.. well that's not too many wow. Didn't notice. But look at you, Taylor, you liked Matt I mean, and then you dated me, then.. Sammy."

"Cam, we basically dated the same amount of guys." He chuckles. "But who was your favorite?" I ask, making sure he would look back at me but he avoids it as soon as that question comes up. "You can't ask that! You already know who!"

"Oh right...Sammy." I wink. "Let's not bring this up. You know I'm happy right. And I'm glad you're here to share my happiness. Let's get back to the guys." He grabs my arm and starts to walk. "By the way, you were my favorite." Nash's hand slips away from mine. "OOPS G2G, RACE YOU!" He starts to run off as I get on his tracks, almost near him.

Nash ends up beating me as we're both panting heavily. I look for Shawn and find him. "Gosh what's with that breathing and sweat. Ew, Nash too. You're suppose to be the bachelor, man of the night! Don't look nasty!" Shawn screams brushing off Nash.

"We were just racing each other here." Nash breaths heavy. "Right. Now take a drink before Cameron has to go. I just called him a ride a few minutes ago."

"Where and why do you have to go." I see that heartbreak in Nash's eyes, it's telling me I shouldn't leave but I can't help it. I have to go to Sammy's I promised and for some reason, I actually don't want to let the guy down.

"Oh. Sammy's party. He insisted and I don't want to bail..." I shrug awkwardly. "Well don't pout, Grier. I'll spend whatever time I can with my boys now then go off to my, aquants." I laugh.

The guys circle up again as we eat nachos and talk memories. I love their company and wish we could last together longer but who knows until Nash wants to start a family, or Shawn and Taylor tour even more. I don't know about Carter or Matt but I hope they never leave me.

"Ride is here, Cam." Carter alerts. Just as I'm about to leave after hugging the boys, Nash follows up to me. "Allow me to walk you!" He says.

I see my ride and I take a quick look at Nash, I love the way he's shining in this light. All I see are his blue eyes, my favorite factor, reminds me of water in which we met and who knew we'd be this close now. Wow do I love him.

He opens his arms wide after realizing I'm just staring too long. And I know this won't last forever and, honestly, I'm some what okay about it.

"Glad we didn't do anything dumb." I leg go quickly because do couldn't bare to hold him any longer.

"By the way, it was never dumb to love you." Nash smiles before letting me leave.

[ 11/11 6:59 p ]