Hi there!
First things first: I am German.
I am terribly sorry for all the mistakes, really I am.
Please don't be to hard on me!
I hope you'll like it.
In the beginning it's a bit dark, but there is a sweet ending, promise!
Have fun!
AngelsBeast
Ever since Shinichi Kudo returned, he was different than before.
Very different.
He was... Cold.
Heart shut carefully.
Since he came back, he locked his heart, not allowing anyone to come near to its centre.
One sign for that was how he managed his 'relationship' with Ran. He told her he was sorry, but he couldn't return her feelings. That action of him ended in weeks of tears and sadness from Ran. Ran
She's still in love with him.
But he changed.
He wouldn't let anyone tear his true self, it is buried deep inside him.
He became like a cold machine, correct, intelligent and without any emotion.
Ran suffered the most from it.
He was away very often. But when he was home and they met, it seemed as he wasn't really there, like he impersonated himself just to keep up the facade of his old self to the rest of the world.
A mask for the world to hide the broken soul beneath it.
And why?
Because every person, everyone near him, all the people he loved...
He brought them into a dangerous game.
Well, the organisation was now completely destroyed.
Finally.
But as a detective, he is confronted with danger permanently.
And he swore to himself to never put a person in danger like that again.
Ever. Again.
His old love for Ran restricted his detective senses, made them dull.
Love makes your heart race, it plays with your senses and turns your brain into a fuzz because of the pure luck you feel.
It's the most wonderful feeling in the world.
But for me, Shinichi thought bitterly, it means that my greatest weapon, my mind, isn't working with 100% like it should. I'll miss things and bring everyone in danger.
Just like it happened shortly before the Black Organisation was destroyed.
So he closes his heart to protect his dearest, but at the same time, he hurts them more than he can imagine, he knows that.
But he also knows that he'll never forgive himself if something happens again.
So that's how he decided to separate himself from them to avoid bringing them in danger.
Right now, he sat at a table in a café with Ran.
They talked.
Like always.
He loved their talks, he really does.
But he is also aware of that mask that he's showing his childhood friend. That painful happy mask, covering his suffering and his guilt.
