Diary,
I couldn't leave you behind. You have became a dear and cherished friend to me. I ripped the last entry out of you and left it inside my dresser drawer with my unmentionables. Should take Adam a while to open that drawer. Perhaps Annie will be the one to find it, if im not able to make it back home. I write as if I know I won't. Need to stop with the negative thoughts huh?
So it wasnt difficult walking out of the front door this morning. Least not with the zombies. Damn hard saying goodbye to Annie and Adam. I would have taken them along but the idea of either getting harmed and me not being able to stop it sends me into a full blown panic attack.
Being outside now, in the openness of the world, without windows and doors to hide behind is
Quite alarming to say the least. I stopped today and watched one of those monsters eating on another one. They both stood, taking large bites out of each others arms. I shuddered at the mere thought of teeth digging deep into my flesh and having my skin ripped from my muscles and bones. Do they drink the blood too? What does it even taste like? My stomach rolls as they chew with their broken teeth and moan back and forth to one another. I left them to their lunch. The streets were deserted save for a few corpses but they didn't seem to pay me any attention. They shuffled so slowly I didn't fear them. I studied the homes lining the country road and figured my best bet to town would be a vehicle. Ours at the house were out of gas and wouldn't start even for a moment. We had tried. I had stopped when I came up on our neighbors house and I saw their jeep liberty sitting at the end of their drive. I shrugged, why not? And started down the blacktop toward the jeep.
I wasnt lucky enough for the keys to be in the vehicle. Nope! Locked up tighter than fort knox. And I can't hotwire to save my life sooooo I looked hesitantly at the small ranch style home and started for the front door. Their door was shut but it opened easily enough when I turned the knob. Never a good sign. I could smell rot soon as I was in and wished I had brought with me one of dad's old bandanas. The place wasnt as torn up as I would have thought. Trash here and there but it looked about as clean as how Adam and I had our place. My empty duffle bag irritated my shoulder, which wasn't a good sign as it was still empty. I walked slowly into the kitchen, my little .380 walter ppk held out in front of me. I hated taking one of our guns from home. Taking from my siblings but Adam insisted and I needed protection.
Their electric was out as well but they still had food in their cabinets. I started loading up, thinking maybe the supermarket wouldn't be necessary. They seemed to have stockpiled quite a lot of non-perishables. I was smiling, thanking God for my good fortune. My bag was full and had to be drug out of the kitchen by the time I was finished. I ate slowly on a pack of wheaties crackers. They tasted so delicious after only saltines and peanut butter. I was grinning like mad as I had also found several cases of cola. We hadn't had soda since this whole zombie thing happened. We would celebrate!
I wasnt as fortunate with the jeeps keys. I tore that damn place up looking for them only finding them at last in the jeans pocket of my neighbor. I found him laying on his bed with the gun still in his hand and a picture of his family beside him. I cried for him. I cried for his loss. His body was stiff and hard as I felt inside his pockets, my fingers touching the cool metal of the keys. I watched him for signs of movement but he was dead and staying that way. He had made sure of it with that one single shot. I was outside and loading my supplies into the back of the jeep before I could think anymore on my neighbor's suicide. It made me worry about Adam. Would he do that if I didn't come back? What about Annie?
The jeep, my jeep, had almost a full tank of gas. I thanked God again and said a prayer for my neighbor before backing out of his drive and debating on going home or heading to town for more. I'm sure you know my decision by now as I'm still not home with my brother or sister. I haven't made it into the store. I decided to sleep some or rest at the very least. I decided on a small dollar store to do my looting. I've noticed the further I get into town the more zombies there are. Best to stay on the outskirts. I've parked beside an old gas station. I haven't gotten out to check and see if there's fuel still available. Tomorrow for sure. Its getting dark and I dont want to turn on a light and give my position away. I hope Adam and Annie are okay. Gotta think positively. I miss them already. I miss mom and dad too. Goodnight diary.
