Behind the bars of love (destiel Au)

At the end of the day

     After he leans out after what seems like forever. He smiles, and I smile back. Dean bites his lip before saying. "Come on I wanna show you something. Unless of course, you rather go back to school." "Sounds good." I smile as he gets up. Putting his hand out for me. I grab his hand and gets up. We hold hands as we walk down the bleachers.
"Do I get a hint?" I ask him. "Nope, just follow me." So I just keep walking. Our hands still laced together as we walk toward the parking lot. We silently walk with our hands together to his car. It's still in the same perfect condition it was in two years ago.
    I smile and get in the passenger side. He quickly gets in the drivers seat and smiles, looking over at me. "Ready?" "Yea." He then pulls out of the parking spot.
He speeds down the road. We both stay silent. Not in an awkward way.
Finally we turn down a path. It's not really a street. Leaves cover the path. The red and orange seems to fill the whole ground. The leaves fall from the trees as he pulls his car down the path. The leaves fly around the ground before they settle down as we pass them by. The path seems to not just be going straight, but upward also. After a while it gets even steeper. After a while I see the end of the path. He pullSs the car up to the end and parks it. He looks over at me. "Ready?" He smiles. "Course." I smile back.
He then gets out of the car and I do to. He walks over and hold his hand out. "C'mon." He says and I grab his hand. As he starts walking through the leaves. Our hands stay laced together as we walk down a small. Almost unnoticeable path. The farther we go the less trees there is. And the steeper it gets. Then we could see the end. Or just when the trees end. Out hands are still laced together as we walk slowly. Smiling and looking around looking at each other. Into each other's eyes. When we get there it's still goes up. We are almost climbing up the side now. But it's get flat once we get to the field. Almost like someone just sliced off the top of a mountain. It's just a big field of long grass and some flowers mixed in. Its very big. But I still follow him hand in hand to the end of the field. He starts walking slower the closer we get to it. I can start seeing the trees from the mountains around us. It looks like something out of a movie. I see taller mountains in the distance and small ones in between. It's all colorful with the bright colors of fall.
    There's only small mountains around us. At the bottom of one in front of us I start to see a lake at the bottom. The bright colors all around it. Red leaves regent in the water.
    Right before we get to were the field meets the steep side of the mountain, he stops and sits and I sit down right next to him. I look out at the mountains.
I hold up a smile that I'm not even meaning to do. It's the first time in a very long time I've actually smiled. Not forced at all.
    I look down at the lake and all the colors. The red and orange colors seem to fill the ground and all the mountains.
     Before I look into a much more beautiful color. Green. His amazing bright candy apple green eyes peer into mine.
    He smiles back. "This is amazing." "Yea, I found it while exploring."  "You're amazing." He smiles wider before kissing me. Slowly. We take our time. Because it feels like we have all the time in the world. He leans out but our foreheads touch. Our lips just an inch apart. With both smile so much from ear to ear. He slides his hands through my hair. "I've missed you so much cas." He whispers. Before I can say anything he kisses me again. His hands still running through my hair. I never want to stop. I wish time would stop and we could just do this for the rest of our lives.
Reality steps back in when he leans out. "I wish we could just...do this forever." I say as he slowly, casually moves his hand down and props himself up with it.
     "Me too." He smiles. I feel like we are either smiling or kissing. I smile back.
       I then look back out at the mountains. And put my head on his shoulder. He kisses the top of my head. "I wanted to get here before sunset. It's really pretty." "Then I'm glad we did." "It should be setting soon." "Good." I say back still smiling. I watch the bright yellow ball inching closer and closer to the top of a mountain. The mountain looks like it will just pop the bright shining light from the sky. But the uneasiness fades when the bright orange ball slips behind the mountain. As the sun fades behind the mountain the sky gets darker and darker.
    The sun disappears behind the mountain. Only leaving a small trail of light. Dean hugs me close. I keep my head on his shoulder. He runs his hands through my hair.
    For the first time in forever I feel safe. I feel..... Loved.

  "Cas, will you still be here tomorrow?" Me smile fades as i snap into a deeper reality. "Tomorrow yes..."
Cas...." He sighs "when, when are you leaving?"
I bite my lip. Hoping he wouldn't ask me that. But I know I should tell him though. He needs to know.
"...F-Friday morning."
I can almost hear the sadness just from his breathing. The way he almost gasped.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't...don't tell me that your sorry. If you really were you wouldn't leave."

By this time we are both facing each other in the dark space. Only the stars and moon for light. We can barely see each other's faces. But I can still see the pain in his face.

"I would if I could. And you know I can't Dean."
"Why can't you, why can't you just stay here. why!"
"I-I can't risk it Dean."
"Risk what Cas?"
I keep biting my lip. "Getting caught."
"But is it...is that the only reason."
"No, I'm not going to spend 2 years in that hellhole of an orphanage. And then what? What'll I do after that?"
"You could stay with me....my dads barley home and Sammys at college."
"Dean...I couldn't do that."
"And what are you going to do anyways?"
I shrug. "I'll just do what I always do."
"Really, living off stolen food and buses."
"It's not as bad as you'd think."
"Just stay, please."
I look anywhere but his eyes. He's staring right at me. He's eyes as filled with anger and sadness. They've changed in only 1 minute.
I look down
"I can't."
"But you can good damn it!"
I can see the anger build up inside him.
"I'm sorry."
I keep my head down.
"but your not!"
"I wish I could stay."
"I'm giving you every reason why you should, Cas."
He tries to calm down but I can still hear the anger in his voice.
"That's not enough."
"Cas, are those really the reasons why you won't stay."
I breathe deeply.
"Some of them."
"What are the other reasons.
"It's... It's just that.... That I..."
I trail off not finishing what I was about to say.
"You can tell me, whatever it is please. Cas. I want to help, I can help. You just have to tell me."

I take a deep breathe