The game

Chapter 39

SALLY'S POV 

i walk throw the hospital door and go up to the second floor , it's been two days and Zayn hasn't woke up yet ! i went home earlier to take a shower and change my clothes and got back here as fast as i could.

i was about to open the door to his room when a voice from behind said 

....: you still have the nerves to come here !!

i turn around to find ......Louis !! Zayn's best friend sitting in the waiting room

me : what are you talking about ?

he stood up and walked over to me , his eyes were red and puffy ...he was crying

him : this is all your fault !!! 

i could feel my own tears about to spill out from his words 

me : w-what the hell are you talking about Louis !!?

he laugh without humor 

him : don't you get it !!! if you didn't give Zayn the letter none of this would have happened !!!! 

me : but ....

him : if you had accepted to play the finals , they wouldn't have done the race , your a girl they would have came up with an other challenge , less dangerous , but you being the stupid girl you are , you gave it to Zayn knowing that he could die !!!! 

i was crying by the time Louis finished his words !!! is it true !!!! am i responsible for this !!  oh god !!! no ! no !! it can't be !!!! 

i look at Louis 

me : but i thought that he wanted to revenge his brother , i-i thought it would be the only way to help him get over it !! 

him : revenging his brother by joining him !!!! did u think that me and the boys would have let him do it !!! we knew why Zayn got into this game ! and we were planing on stopping him! but he lied to us ! he said that he was out of it ! that he was done with all of that shit !! we were happy that he finally understood , next thing i know i got a phone call saying that Zayn was in the hospital !! 

i sit on one of the chairs and put my head in my hands !!! this can't be real !!!!! i can't believe that i am the reason that Zayn is hurt !! the only one that matters in my life ......i hurt him !!!!!

i hurt everyone around me !! who ever get close to me get hurt !!!

Louis : you know , you would do yourself and Zayn a big favor if you just go away and never come back !!!!

and with that he went to the cafeteria , with shaky legs   i stood up and get in Zayn' room , i walk to him and run my fingers throw his soft hair 

me : am so sorry babe !! this is all my fault !! but am going away and u will be okay !! i hope that one day you will understand that i am doing this for you.....so that you don't get hurt anymore .

i lean into him and press my lips to his 

me : i love you babe .

and with that i walk out of his room , out of the hospital and and out of his life .

as i get in my car i can't help the tears that are running over my face and the terrible ache in my heart but i keep telling myself that this is for the best , i am doing this for Zayn ....