Selfless Love (Truth to Life)

Month of June

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko uumpisahan ito. I'm not a good storyteller. Nor abgreat writer. Nagsimula ito noong June. Taong 2014.Eksaktong 8am. Hindi ko na maalala yung eksaktong date pero alalang-alala ko kung pano ako nairita ng sobra noong araw na iyon. Bakit? Hindi ko din alam. Bipolar ako sabi ng iba. Pero literal na tinoyo ako nung nakita ko yung kaklase namin. 1st day ng klase namin sa 1sr semester. Wala pang naka-uniform noon bukod sa kanya. Ironic. Pero siguro yun yung kinairita ko nung time na yun. Nabuwisit din siguro ko sa itsura nung kaklase ko na yun. Judgemental na kung judgemental pero ang pangit niya. And i doubt na magkakagusto ako sa kanya. Ang kapal ng kilay. Mga 3 inches siguro to be exact yung kapal. Punggok. Literal. Punggok. As in. Gangster ang eksena. Pero iba yung napansin ko sa mata niya. I don't know pero i think it's telling something. Haaay. Ewan. Pero it creeps me out.

Paupo na sana ko whem i realize na wala pala ako mauupuan kase vacant na lahat ng seat. Then yung katabi ni Punggok yung nag-offer ng upuan. He's sort of tall. Dark chocolate man. Makulit to. Features pa lang e. Naloka ako nung simabi niya, "Upo ka na dito Miss Beautiful." Naulul ako dun. Bakit? Hindi ako mukhang babae. Oo. I'm gay. Pero i don't look like a girl. And funny how it seems na tiningnan lang ako ni Punggok.

"Nel nga pala." He half-whispered. Na ikinagulat ko. Then politely, i replied. "Hi. Ian pangalan ko. Nice to meet you by the way." Then i smiled. Yung half smile lang. For formality lang ba. Then thr conversation went on.

"Nga pala. Ilang tao ka na?" He asked. Maniwala kaya to pag sinabi ko yung edad ko? Well. Wala namang masama sa pagsasabi sa totoo. So i told him the truth. "Seventeen." Then the funny moment happened. "Seventeen? E yung height mo pang model. Totoo?" Nanlaki yung singkit niyang mata. Hindi ko maintindihan pero i literally froze when i saw his eyes to be wide. Kulay brown. Really. Na-amaze ako sa mata niya. Pero i didn't told him that. Baka lumaki yung ulo niya e.

The first day went by in a blur. We exchanged numbers. Talked and talked for the rest of the week. Became seatmates. We became close that i felt guilty sa kaibigan niya before me. Nalaman ko na Jhervin pala yung pangalan niya. They used to be schoolmates nung high school sa Araullo High School. He insist na tawagin kong bestfriend niya si jhervin kase hindi naman daw talaga.

-Time flies so fast. 3 weeks after-

So ayun. Days blurred like a bullet. And i wasn't aware na we became closer and closer as the days went by. Ethics yung 1st subject namin. And i remembered the lesson very well.

"Okay. Class. How would you become a good filipino citizen?" Our professor asked. Then i raised my hand. "Sir. For me. We would become a good or should i say a better filipino citizen when we love each other as we love ourselves and our family." Awkward kase lahat ng mata napatingin sakin. Well. Wala namang masama sa sagot ko di ba? Then a girl flashed me a smile. And Jham is her name. She's sort of chubby. With a little nose. And don't get me started on her chin. Please. Anyways. Ayun. Naging kaibigan ko sila Jham. Together with more of the girls rather than the boys. Erie. Siya yung feeling ko tinuring akong favorite person in the world. Parehas kase siguro kame ng pinagdaanan. I've had a girlfriend named Marg Samuray. Pero hindi naman nagwork out. Why? Abangan niyo yung susunod na chapter para malaman niyo.

(A/N sorry. Ang shitty and ang tagal ni update. Pinag-isipan ko kasi kung ipupush ko pa eh. Sa mga makakabasa. Kung meron man. Inuulit ko. Totoong story po ito. And ako po yung naka-experience. So please please please. Do read. Comment some shit. And do pm me for dedications. Ciao.) Bukas mag-uupdate ako. Promise. Magread/vote lang kayo.