My Self Harm Story

I Finally Stood Up

I finally had enough of Doug's ways of raping and abusing me! I finally fought back and ran away for a while... But he soon found my hiding in the woods and beat me almost to death. I was sent to the hospital but they said it was a car accident (a hit and run) so they didn't do anything about it...

My cutting soon became more often and I started cutting on my arms. I had to start wearing long sleeves... My parents didn't think of anything... I started talking to councillors online and I told them bout my cutting but I didn't tell them bout the rapes or the beating...

I mean what was I supposed to do..? Tell her? I couldn't... I couldn't get Doug in trouble by telling them.. So I kept it a secret for a long time...  My sister started beating my senseless everyday... I couldn't fight back, I wasn't physically capable of doing so... So I just let it happen..

I soon realized I couldn't and I didn't have to put up with people's shit anymore.. I tried fighting back. Of course knowing a 10 year old girl fighting back a 50 year old man and a 16 year old girl would of course fail but I had to try and I kept fighting ever since! I couldn't deal with anyone's shit anymore... I continued cutting. It was the only thing that helped me feel something... I couldn't stop. I wasn't able to. No matter how many times I tried to I just couldn't... So I continued and continued... What else am I supposed to do..?