For The Second Time

Broken Dreams

HER POV

A few nights ago, my boyfriend, I mean my ex-boyfriend, appeared in my dream.

It was raining hard that day when I saw him running and got drenched in the pouring rain.

I shouted at him to stay for a while in the facade of a dorm or somewhat like a building, telling him to wait for me so I could get him an umbrella. He stopped then looked at me. So I went inside to get him one.

But when I came back, he is nowhere to be found.

And then I woke up.

I was really frustrated when I woke up. Seriously.

And then it really bugged me so I searched a dream interpretation site. See what I have learned:

Dream symbols

1. Rain

~ a gift or assistance from God

~ spiritual presence

~ depressed feelings or difficulties

~ cleansing, washing away the old, and starting new

2. Someone leaving you

~ an ending or a phase coming to a close in your real life

~ feeling that someone is abandoning someone or something, such as their responsibilities

~ feeling abandoned, alone, or left behind in real life- in a current or past situation

3. Umbrella

~ the coping skills we use to ward off difficult feelings and changes in circumstance

And guess what? It seems true but I don't know if this interpretation is really valid or not but I believe God is telling me to forget the past.. The feelings of abandonment, difficulties, of being alone, I experienced it all.

I know I need to start anew. It's been almost two years but he's still here... carved in my chest. That's why I just can't bury my feelings. There's still a part inside my wounded heart that's still longing for him to come back.... to come back to me even if I'm just hoping against hope.

Oh well. XD

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