3 Am Thoughts

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I am good for a while
I'll talk more, laugh more
Sleep and eat normally
But then something happens
Like a switch turns off somewhere
And I am left with the darkness in my mind
But each time it seems like I sink
Deeper and deeper
And I am scared...
Terrified one day I won't make it back up
I feel like I am gasping for air
Screaming for help
But everyone just looks at me
With confused faces
Wondering what I am struggling over
When there all doing just fine
And it makes me feel crazy

What the hell is wrong with me?