Good Luv: DeVante Swing vs. A$AP Rocky

Chapter Four: I Don't Wanna

DANA POV

I finally made it back from girls' night. It was JUST what I needed to get my mind off Rakim. However, I felt very scared coming back because I felt that he would show up wherever I was and hurt me. My mother left Canada and now is in Las Vegas doing a teaching residency there for three months, meaning that I get the house to myself! What to do, what to do?

I wanted nothing more than a relaxing bubble bath.....I unlocked the door and to my surprise, Sharif was there! I dropped everything, hugged him but he looked at me like he was disappointed or something.

Me: Everything okay?

Sharif: I should be asking you the same thing, Dana.

Me: What are you talking about, Sharif?

Sharif: Why are you wearing a nose strip?

Me: Because my nose bleeds. You know this. I had a deviated septum, it was a bloody mess.

Sharif: Could it have been because Rakim or Rocko, or Rocky hit you so hard that it triggered a reaction?

I was shocked. This nigga went through my room, touching my stuff, and most importantly read the note I had intended for Mom to read. Fuck!

Me: Look, I was gonna tell you.....but you overreact over everything! And how did you know Rakim hurt me?

Sharif: I put two and two together. You have to leave him.

Me: I know. But I'm scared to!

Sharif: I'm not gonna tolerate him abusing you. You get up, tell him it's over and stay focused on the task at hand - school! UNDERSTAND!?

Me: Yes.

I didn't want to argue with him, so I agreed to save face. Part of me wanted to get back with Rakim, the other told me that Sharif was right. I don't wanna do this....

THE NEXT MORNING

Sharif went for a run in Central Park and I woke up, did my routine and heard some knocks on the front door. I didn't even look through the damn peephole, just opened the door and there was Rakim.

Me: Go away.

Rocky: Let me explain.

Me: You don't need to explain anything. I'm a lying hoe remember? Just like all the others you fucked.

I tried to close the door, but he resisted it.

Me: Just leave me alone!

Rocky: I can't.

Me: I don't want to be with you anymore, you gave me a deviated septum!  I can barely breathe through my nose because you hit me so hard!

I turned away so he wouldn't see me cry. But Rakim came from behind me and no matter how much I fought, he never eased up on his grip.

Me (crying): I don't want to talk to you....

Rocky: I'm sorry, I am. It was some shit that I got caught up with at the studio that I took out on you. I'll never hit you again. 

Wiping my tears, I looked up at him. He seemed sorry, but I just had to really make sure.

Me: Nobody hits me.

Rocky: I'm---

Me: My stepdad hit my Mom. She raised Sharif not to do it, and for me not to take it!

Rocky: You were raised right, baby girl. I'll never hurt you again....

Me: I wish I could believe that.

Rocky: You can. I always keep my word, you know that.

Me: Do I?

Rocky: Please...can you just--....just, think about it. I love you so much, and I don't want to be without you. 

He turned and walked out. This was a lot to take in. Part of me wants to leave him completely, the other wants to stay and work it out. 

I don't know what to do....