Ryden

How it all started

Ryan's P.O.V
It was muggy Sunday afternoon . Brendon was all I could think about  . His white milky skin , his brown floppy hair and his beautiful hazel brown eyes . My crush for Brendon had turned into a massive obsession." Flashback " We were practicing "I write sins not tragedies " at first I didn't think I could ever like a guy , but as he stares singing it was like liquid gold was pouring out of his mouth . At that moment I was hypnotized by him . Brendon Boyd urie was the only person I wanted in my life . "Flashback over " 

"Hey Ryan " exclaims Brendon

" Hey Brendon , so I was wondering if you wanted to get like um ...  Wendy's later ?" I say awkwardly blushing

"Um .. Sure I guess "

Brendon's P.O.V
That conversation with Ryan was so awkward . I don't even know how to respond to that , like Wendy's nobody says  wanna hang out at Wendy's . This isn't a date wtf I'm not into guys .  Not sure how to break the news to him that we want to kick him out of the band .  But I guess I'll have to tell him on this " date " thing .

Ryan's P.O.V
Me and Brendon on date finally I never thought he'd say yes ! I feel like I'm about to vomit I'm so excited , I've never wanted to be in the band more in my life ! Now I'll be forever by Brendon's side . It'll be him and me traveling the world on tour for every P!ATD concert . I never thought Brendon was into guys  I guess I was wrong . We'll have so much to talk about . Oh my god what do I wear casual , fancy . Who cares along as he loves me !

Brendon's P.O.V
Why did I say yes I'm not into guys at all this isn't a date hopefully . I'll feel so bad kicking him out if he thinks this is a date . I hope he knows I'm not homosexual . This we'll be so weird we have nothing to talk about . Ugg why did I agree to go . Maybe I'll just cancel , no I can't do that I have to tell him he's no longer part of P!ATD .

I text Brendon, "have you left yet ?"

" ding" it's a text from Ryan have you left yet ? Oh my god  he's so anxious . " yes just sitting down now " I respond .

I waddle awkwardly to the door swing it open nearly ripping it off the hinges . There he is sitting in the corner and a two person table . Looking out the window .  "Brendon !"  I say with exciment .

" Oh hey man what's up. Hope you don't mind I ordered two chilies and two vanilla frosty's "

" nothing much , and I don't care what you order I'll have whatever your having . I'm so glad you agreed to see me .  I have so much to say ." I say gleaming realizing I'm already talking to much  .

" Ryan there's something I need to say before you say anything . "  

"YES "

"The band has decided we no longer want you . I'm sorry it's not you at all we just thi- .

" No I completely   understand what you guys mean . No need to apologize . "  My heart is completely shattered I have no God damned words for this feeling . I just feel so lost and empty .
" I just thought Yo-"

" oh no Ryan , I'm so sorry if I made you think that at all .I'm not into guys at all , I actually have a thing for this girl Sarah sorry dude I didn't known . " wow this was so awkward

" No it's ok completely got it , just I was confused some mixed messages were coming though . Yea no I get it . Anyways now look at the time  . "
Using any excuse to get out of this situation
"Bye Brendon see you soon "

"Bye Ryan and sorry about the band it's nothing personal " but he's already gone

Ryan's P.O.V
I feel like complete garbage  my heart is broken . As I shut my eyes and hold them tightly closed I feel tears start to fall down my face . Brendon's
broken my heart and I have no words to describe it. It feels like hell , he made me feel like such an idiot. And on top of my broken heart I'm kicked out of the band. Fantastic I have no job ,no life, no friends ,and I don't have Brendon anymore . And who the fuck is Sarah. I hate myself for having any feeling  .

Brendon's P.O.V
I feel like such a jerk. I didn't know Ryan actually liked me, how could he not know I don't swing that way . I kicked him out of the band when he thought this was a date. Maybe I could lie and tell him i'm actually into him but that would make things so much worse. Maybe all this time I've just never realize that Ryan truly  had feelings for me. Well at least I know Sarah is still with me and loves me. I've loved her since day one the first concert we ever had, it was backstage she was one of the only girls who was meeting me , we started talking then  exchanged phone numbers then we went out a few times and then it got serious.

Ryan's P.O.V
I just need to get over him, everything I've ever thought everything I will think is a lie Brendon will never love me . I need To stop fantasizing about the day I'll save him or he'll save me and will be a happy couple for the rest of our lives that will never happen . He loves Sarah a girl not a loser guy who was once in his band. Brendon no longer controls me he has no power over my mind and my thoughts. It just will be impossible  to let go of everything I once thought to be true .He's not mine and never will be.