Hidden Anecdotes

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It was when I found out that she was pregnant. 1993 was her worst year. It was every shade of melancholy and disappointments.

After our marriage failed to work 7 years ago, we managed to stay friends for the sake of our two children. Of course I wanted to save it. I loved her so much but she told me we have to move on. She was hurting and even though it was hard for me, I needed to let her go. It breaks my heart to see her crying because of me.

After sometime I realized that I couldn't make it without her. Then several months had passed , I pursued her again but she was not interested anymore. She had completely moved on with some other man. She told me, she was happy and he proposed and she was going to marry him.

It broke my heart.

I thought, I could still win her back. I thought, I still had a chance. Maybe. Just maybe we could still  start over again.

I just want her to be happy. She deserves all the love in this world.

I never moved on. I still love her and only her.

4 years later, I heard she and her then husband decided to gone their separate ways.

Our children was living with her, so I could still check on her every now and then. Sometimes I would visit her or stay the night,  our kids as my excuse.

I never left her side. I was there for her every time. I was her friend. Her best friend.

I have seen her worst and her best.

I am so proud of her.

It was heartbreaking to hear rumors and gossips about how she fucked up, how she became the biggest disappointment, how others would whisper nasty things about her.

She does not deserved those cold treatments. She deserves better.

I will not leave her side, never again.

If I could own that new life as mine, I would.

 

If only, I had became a better husband. She would not be in a situation like this.

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