LANDA POV
I can't look at myself in the mirror. It hurts so bad and I feel so ashamed. How could I say yes to him? Camron is my soul mate, he has to be in Heaven saying "Lan?? Why?". Right? There's no way he will be okay with this. I just want him to come back. I want the father of my son and the love of my life to walk through that door. It's crazy that a part of me believes this will actually happen, I was there for the funeral and I still don't believe it. I'm sorry, but I have to do it-I have to tell Detrell that, I can't.
-Detrell comes home-
"Baby one and baby tw--whoa what did I do?" Detrell says seeing Landa standing up twiddling the ring in her fingers.
"Nothing, you did nothing.." She says with tears forming "and we, we can't do anything either" she says walking towards him placing the ring in his hand.
"Wait Lan I don't understand what's this about look if it's been my hours lately I'm sorry I'll take more time off. Or is it I don't show you enough love? I swear I've tried I'm sorry. I'll bring you flowers every day what happened we were fine?" Detrell says frantically.
Landa places a hand on his shoulder has tears stream down her cheeks "Detrell it's not you, you're perfect, Gosh you're perfect. From the way you treat us to the way you love us. The sweet words the I love you's just because. The taking my son as your own. The loving me unconditionally, but Detrell I can't marry you because I should be marrying Camron. I'm not, I'm not sure I'll ever be able to marry anybody-because nobody is him. He was my everything, the father of my kid, my first time, my first love, my world. I don't feel right and I don't feel okay. I love you-but I can't do this." Unable to look at him after saying this, Lan turns around and cries extremely hard in her hands.
Detrell, lost for words, picks his keys up, places the ring back on the table, and walks out.
That was the last time she'd see him, for years.
