Him.
The one who had been my friend, my lover, my enemy then became the one I love. He had been with other girls. I hate that thing. I want to chase him. I want to get him. I want him to be mine. Selfish eh? I got envy to one of his girlfriend. Why? Because he loves her. I was there when he got jealous and walked out because of T being close to R. I was there when he gave a stuffed toy to her. I was there whenever they go to 7 11. I was there when he was expressing his love to her. I was there when she was taking care of him whenever he is sick. I was there when he seat at her side. I was there when he fight for her. I was there when he kissed her. I witnessed almost half of their relationship. Now while typing this I want to cry. Hahahahaha! I hate that he once in love with other girls. But I should have thank them. Why? Because their presence helped me to realize that I loved him, I love him and I'm loving him. Without those girls I guess until now I'm on my in denial stage. Hahahahaha! I love being at his side. I love being with him all the time. I love seeing him laugh. I love talking to him. I love kissing him. I love cuddling him. I love it when he open up his problems to me. I love hearing his voice. I love his presence. I love his eyes. Those eyes that makes me feel weak whenever he looks at me straight to my eye. I love him. Most of all I love his smile. His smile that is so genuine, so true. That smile that makes me smile too. I hate myself on making that smile fade away. I hate myself for making his wonderful eyes cry. He didn't deserve me. Until now I can't believe that he chose me. I can't believe that he loves me. I cant believe that I'm able to hug and kiss him. I can't believe. Most of the time I dissapoint him but hey! He's still there keeping his patience. He saw every side of me. Happy, sad, angry, lazy, dramatic, childish, boyish and clumsy side. I'm glad that he is not leaving despite of every push I make to him. On the same way I also witnessed all sides of his personality. Happy, sad, mad, naughty, girly, childish and loving side. I love every single part of him. I can't live without him. I just can't. It seems like half of my heart will fall into pieces when I loose him. I love him so much that words are not enough to say how much I love him. Actions ain't enough to express how much I love him. God knows how I love my family and him. Sorry for the arguments. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for staying at my side. Thank you for making me feel safe. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you because you never let me handle a problem alone. Thank you so much. Iloveyou Nathaniel Ablaza. The one I love :*
09-20-15
Love, Jhona :*
