How it all began

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dedicated to AhmazeMe for making the lovely trailer. Thx love, it made me cry!

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There it is, the mark if been dreading for. It's not a curse, but not a blessing either. But I feel my eyes gets filled with tears of a mix of joy, shock and terror. I put down the test and dry my eyes, still sitting on the bathroom floor crying. "What am I going to do?" I think to myself. I take my knees up to my chest and start crying.

I must have been crying for a while, because I felt my phone vibrating in my jean pocket, telling me someone is calling me. I picked up the phone to check who it is. "Louis" I said to myself. I left it to go to voice mail and there was none left behind

I decided to go to check my twitter for any news on well anything. Same thing as usual, hate just hate.

LTtoygirlk95: @eleanorjcalder ur 2 ugly and slutty 2 b with Louis, he's mine bitch!

1Dfanl: back off from @louistomlinson @Eleanorjcalder, and go back 2 whore city!

SBitch!: @Eleanorjcalder better stay away from my man, or else we're gonna have a dead body

Luckylily: @Eleanorjcalder should just kill herself, nobody loves her and she is ugly little slut!

Directioner4evar: @eleanorjcalder is just a beard, everything about her is fake. She's fake and a total bitch. @eleanorjcalder belongs with tramps! Lslove: Larrystylingson 4 ever!

These where some of the many comments on my wall.  it hurt, it really did. I am worthless aren't I? I am just a little slut and whore, who's pregnant with a pop-star's unborn child.

 I walked over to a corner and sat and read the tweets. Tears streaming down my face, I sat still not moving a muscle, only breathing. I looked down at my wrist where the raiser had put its mark.

 I get up and walk to the loo, crying for what I'm going to do, to the one I love with all my heart and what we created together, a blessing.

 I walked towards the cupboard and took the medicine Louis was given to treat the ears, pain killers. I took a glass that was always is in the bathroom, Louis and Harry has one glass each, but I took Louis. I filled it up with water and put it on the side of the sink. I started to open the bottle with the pills and poured a handful in my hand. I poured the pills in my mouth and drank the water. I did this two times more just to empty the bottle. I sat down on the floor waiting for the effects to kick in.

After a good ten minutes or so, I felt a lot weaker and my eyes felt heavy, I let them drop and I felt like I almost was asleep. I felt in peace with myself. Not being a burden or a waste of space, just free for once. 

"Honey I'm home" Louis shouted from down stairs, his little joke filling the house. "Eleanor?" Louis voice started to get worried and I can hear him walking up the stairs and looking in different rooms, while shouting my name.

"Eleanor are you in....HOLY SHIT!" I feel a pair of hands on my arms holding me close.

Louis POV:  

"Eleanor, babe, what have you done?" I ask as tears stream down my face, I can't look at her "HARRY CALL 999!" "El, stay with me babe, don't leave me" I put el carefully on the floor and start CPR, a short 10 seconds later Harry runs in, I turn with my eyes bowling out, still on Eleanor . He's still has the phone in his hands. He walks over to Eleanor and checks her pulse by her neck and then puts the phone back to his ear

" her pulse is low and hardly breathing, she's getting CPR now" he tells them. I just look to the side and that's when I see something on the sink, I tell Harry to get the bottle and reads out loud " Louis Tomlinson, pain killers for ears" it's empty, I look at the bottle then at el and back to the bottle

"shit, fuck! Eleanor what have you done!?" I look at her lifeless body.

I start to hear the ambulance and they came rushing in and took Eleanor's lifeless body and starts CPR and hooks her up to wires of everything. They rushed downstairs and so did we. They took Eleanor in to the ambulance

"who's coming in?", The paramedic asked " me" I said " you are?" "Boyfriend" I answered "okay hop in" and with that. I went in to the ambulance and sat down, holding her hand while they were trying to save her.

"what's her name and age?" One of the paramedics asked me "Eleanor Jane Calder she's 20" I answered and the paramedic writes down "is she pregnant?" "No" I answer and he nods at me.

After 10 min we got to the hospital and I am told to wait outside in the waiting room. I sat down and my face in hands and wait. After half an hour the boys came “hey mate, how’s  she holding on?" Liam asked me "I..I...I don't know" I said and looked down "she was brought to surgery 30 minutes ago and I don't know" now tears were starting to fall.

Then I felt someone pushed me towards the wall "'you bastard, you did this to her! You ruined that lass, you brought her back to depression!" Niall screamed in my face, I wasn't surprised that it was him, he and Eleanor where best mates.

The others got Niall off me, he was still pissed, but they held us apart " what are you talking about!.?" I asked "She was cutting because of the hate, didn't you notice!?" He yelled at me " yes, she said she would stop. That she wouldn't care anymore" I said and broke down. We all sat down and held our peace, not talking much, but waiting.

After a few hours the doctor came out. he stood in the middle of us "Eleanor Calder?" He asked like in a are you here for her "yes" I answered "are you her boyfriend?" He asked "yes" " we have tried everything we could " I stopped him before he could say anything more " as in... She is .... Dea... dead!?" I almost choked in my own words

" I'm sorry, but the amount of pills she had, took both of their lives" he said and left " I am deeply sorry" and with that he left and left me on the floor crying again for the one I love is gone, everyone is crying. We headed to the car and life from that day went to hell.

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