I don't trust myself alone with you anymore
I fear I wont be able to control my damn lips
I had a dream, a funny one that reminded me of you
I couldn't go back to sleep so I stared at the ceiling
your name being yelled inside my mind
im sorry you had to wake up to a message like that
I wish she made you happy
I wish you would just move on
because I know if you did
then finally id be forced to forget the idea of being with you
please tell me why you want me anyways
im a mess and im broken
I freeze everything I touch and cant treat you the way you deserve
I hid my true self from all the rest
I wish I could flaunt you
because youre a gold metal
the true prize
but darling, my dearest pancake
you are a prize
but you are not to be won
if I am being honest
youre too good for all these assholes in the world
and I hope that one day you find someone better than me
who will not cause you so much heartache
someone to hold you
to cry with you
to kiss away your tears
I see this is getting long
but words were never by strongsuit
so this is probably a mess
just know that im sorry
