Erasing the Past

Chapter 1

     All through my life I've known I was a little different from everyone else and I hated it. I didn’t want to stand out. I actually wanted to be the perfect cheerleader with the perfect boyfriend and had the perfect body. I hated myself for the way I looked, talked, acted and just everything about myself made me sad. For a while I dieted, and when I got frustrated with that, I just gave up and gained more and more weight. The only true friend I had that went to my school was my best friend Amelia Marinov, but me being lazy just started calling her Lia. On the first day of Kindergarten I remember walking up to this girl with the biggest brown eyes and a water fountain of hair on her head.

     "Hi, my names Tessa Lynn but you can call me Tess!" I remember saying with the most high pitched voice ever.

     Next thing I knew we were best friends. Playing with the dinosaurs in the back of the class, holding hands and swinging them back and forth at recess, and doing everything together. No we weren’t dating or anything remotely like that, we just liked having a friend to be with. Lia and I were the misfits in the school. While everyone went around screaming and playing, we hid in the playground and just talked till it was time to go inside. We grew closer and closer and we knew everything about each other. She knew about the MASSIVE crush I had on the hottest kid in our grade, Jay, since pre-school, and I knew about her crush on the school clown, Tommy, who our other kinda- friend had a crush on as well. We helped each other through the heartbreaks of minimal and epic proportions. One day someone who I thought I could kind of trust told Jay about how I felt. Needless to say I was horrified to see his reaction.

     A group of people were playing UNO during free time one day in fourth grade, (AKA the most horrific day of my life) Jay came up to me and in front of the whole group said something along the lines of "I hate you Tess. I don’t know why you thought I'd ever love you."

     I guess you could say I was sad but that's not even a fraction close enough to how I was feeling. Imagine the hottest, sweetest kid ever that your in love with just told you that he hated you and would never love you... ya.... now you see how I felt. And if you've never fallen in love then your the luckiest bitch in the world. It sucks. Unless it actually works out the your still the luckiest bitch ever. From then on I stuck with Lia and basically walked the halls trying to be as invisible as possible. When going to the computer lab, I even used a clipboard to hide my face as he walked by. That was basically the rest of my fourth grade till the worst thing you could ever do happened.

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I know this is short but they're gonna be longer.. this is just shorter and I kinda left it on a cliff hanger.. Trust me things will get more interesting!:)