this was never my intention
I need you
I'm sorry
i want to cry and vomit and i feel like my skeleton is turning red and melting my flesh off i just want to be loved oh god please tell me i am capable of love i have so much to give im so tired i want to sleep and cry and cry and cry no one ever asks me if im ok
it's like a stain on your heart.
no matter how hard you try to get rid of it
you can never fully take it away.
you can conceal it
and hide it
and even forget about it but it'll always be there.
the unwanted guest hiding in the corner of your soul
and I don't want to be fixed
jesus christ
I just want to tell someone how I feel and maybe the burden will be a little bit lighter
but I feel like there's a dark vein that runs through my body and bulges with black blood when provoked.
I don't even know what I want anymore
