My lost love ♢kingtong fan fiction♢

Three days left

Three days left. I kept thinking over and over and over.
"Hey? Hello? Zoe!" Will was trying too get my attention
"Oh sorry"
"Are we going too go get your stuff?"
"Yeah,c'mon lets go" I say as we headed out the door
Skipping forward
"Ah,the room looks great" I say
"It does indeed" will agreeing with me
"Are you hungry?"
"It's 4 in the morning, so no" I was telling the truth
"Oh yeah, I kinda forgot it was only 4"
"Will can I ask you a question?"
"Yeah sure anything"
"Did you deal with depression? Like how I feel?"
He stopped walking,he looked like he wanted too get away from me. But why?
"What type of question is that?" He asked me
"A question" I say sounding a little scared
"Yes I deal with depression,and self harm, and suicidal thoughts, and they're still recent,but no one knew until you asked me" his tone has gotten higher
"So you were being a hypocrite" I whisper under my breath
"What!"
"Will why did you get so mad?" Now I really wanted too leave
"I get mad easily" he said with taking a deep breath
Oh...
As soon as will left my room, I 'fell' asleep, when everyone went too bed, I got up, too go into the bathroom and started the bath making the water really really hot. I got into the bath,and dragged a blade across my wrist, watching the blood drip into the clean water what is now filled with bloody water. When I put my cut arm the blood met the water and the water met my blood and stung my cuts.I heard someone knock on the bathroom door.
"Is someone in there?" It was will
This is the part about living with someone, I hated it.
"Um one minute"
"Zoe" he says in a whisper
"Yeah"
"Can I please come in"
"Um let me close the shower curtain"
"Okay" will sounded sad which made me sad
"Okay come in"
"I need too talk too you,about the problems with both have in common"
I felt so weird, because I was in a bath full of blood from cutting.
"Okay, I am listening"
"At 6am I would self harm in the bathtub. I did it on a daily basis. That's why I was coming in here,and I guess I'm glad you're in here too stop me"
"Yea" that's a shame that I took your place
"Wait why are you in the bathtub? At 6? And you already took a shower? Zoe?"
"I felt like I needed too be more clean" I say while lying
"Zoe If I open this shower curtain,will I see blood?"
"If I said no, I would be lying, and I don't want too lie to you" even though I've been lying.
"I'll grab you a towel"
He grab me a towel and handed it too me.
The shock on my face.
"Um will? This looks like it has stains on it. What are the stains?" I ask
"My blood....."
I got up in the bathtub,put on the towel,step out of the bath.
Will looked up at me.
I was crying.
He got up too hug me.
I hugged him back.
"Will I cant do this anymore" I whisper
"I can't either"
"Will you cant leave me"
"I won't,if you don't leave me"
"I won't leave you" I was was being a hypocrite
12:00am
I can't believe will cut his self every morning at six, how come I never ever notice the scars? How come he noticed mine? I just hope he wont find my notebook. I wonder if he has a notebook like mine?
I got up and left my bedroom,wearing a black jumper and black skinny jeans, and knocked on wills bedroom door.
Knock knock "will are you there?" I asked hoping he'll answer
"Um....yeah.....come in" will said holding out his come
Was he trying too do something that he didn't want me too find out?
I opened the door
"Do you need something?" He asked in a panic
"Were you hiding something?" I asked him while sitting next to him
"No. What makes you think that?"
"You were delaying me too come in"
"I had no shirt on"
Okay, I thought to myself. We sat there in silence for a good 4 minutes, an awkward four minutes. Until will broke it.
"So is there something that you needed,wanted too ask me a question or?"
I wanted too jump forward too the question, but I couldn't, I wouldn't want too answer the question I was going too ask straight forward.
"Izzy, you ask me anything"
"Are you sure."
"Izzy, you're scaring me"
"Don't be scared"
"Then ask me the damn question" he giggled
"Do you have a notebook?" I asked him
"What type of notebook"
I knew I shouldn't of asked him
"Never mind"
"What do you mean by a notebook?"
A suicide notebook......I couldn't just say that.
He whispered something I couldn't make out .
"What? Can you repeat that?" I ask him
He looked more depressed than I did in that moment of time.
"A suicide notebook?" He whispered again but this time I could hear him
"Yeah" I say
"Yeah. Yeah I do have one"
I was shocked that he answered me with an honest answer. I wish it wasn't real,but I was in reality it was real,it's all too real,will and I have notebooks that have plans of suicide.
"You're planning suicide?" I ask him
"Sadly yeah." I couldn't bare too see him so upset, I hugged him, wanting too kiss him, I didn't, but will turned around from my hug and kissed me, his lips soft. I felt save in his arms.
"Will I I didn't mean"
"I wanted too" he said with a smile
"I did too,but I was too afraid"
"Don't be afraid of me"
That's what everyone says but they're a monster that I'm afraid of,I Hope will isn't a monster.