A LITTLE GIFT FROM HIM
It was 24 of December when I supposed to receive a little gift from him but apparently I wasn't able to take his bestow yet. Ibinigay na kasi nya sa'kin ngunit nais pa yata nyang bawiin. I have this feeling of excitement that I really want to see his gift for me, ngunit totoo nga yata ang sinasabi nilang "The more you are excited, the more you get disappointed." Magpapasko pa naman pero sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko, ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko, gusto ko syang sumbatan but who am I to blame or judge him? Galing sa kanya yun eh kaya may karapatan syang bawiin ito. I used to confront him and begging to have his gift for me, but he didn't give any response.
When the clock is about to tic-tac at twelve A.m. I lost my self-esteem but one last time, I'm asking, begging and pleasing him na ipakita nya ang regalo nya sa akin but he snob me again and at that moment, I am distrusting him-I distrust him-until...
SURPRISE!!!
Someone is crying! Hindi ako nagkakamali, pinakinggan ko ang paligid dahil may naririnig talaga akong umiiyak.
"It's a miracle Miss." The Doctor told me. Gosh! I am more like insane right now, akala ko'y hindi nya pakikinggan ang pagmamakaawa ko.
The Doctor said a while ago that my li'l son is no longer breathing, kaya nga't hindi ko na talaga nanaising mabuhay kung wala na ang pinakamamahal ko. Siyam na buwan ko syang inalagaan, kahit hindi ko pa sya nakikita ay minahal ko na sya ng lubusan. Binigay nya sa akin ang batang ito eh, kahit wala syang kikilalaning ama ayos lang! mamahalin nya ang mundong ito na maituturing na isang Paraiso.
"Miss, ano po ang ipapangalan ninyo sa bata?" The nurse asked.
"Papangalanan ko syang ..." napangiti ako at napatitig sa anak ko. It's a Merry Christmas! My bouncy baby boy is alive. "JC. Nurse, JC po ipapangalan ko sa kanya. It means, "Jesus Christ" "
When the nurse said that we we're ready to go home, may nakalimutan akong gawin.
I proceeded to the church of the hospital. I'm down on my knees and I lift my hands and pray...
"My dearest God, I am really sorry for untrusting you. Pinagdudahan ko ang kakayahan mo, totoo! You are the almighty and all-powerful our Lord. Maraming salamat po sa surprise na ito! Pinagkalooban nyo sya ng pagkakataong maging masaya sa paraisong ito na inyong nilikha, pinagkalooban mo ako ng pagkakataong maging isang Ina kung kaya't nangangako akong tutumbasan ang regalo ninyo, gagawin ko syang isang mabuting anak at tagapag-lingkod ninyo. Amen."
This is the most valuable surprise that I ever had. A little effort (surprise) is better than any promises.
A little gift from HIM :)
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