A lost love. [wattys2015]

Chapter 16th

After crying, Jenny stood up, wiped her eyes and walked to her dressing table, opened the first drawer, took out a pen and her notebook

She seemed dead yet was taking breaths heavily
As she took them, she sat on the floor and began to write what popped into her head

"I was nice but I'm blue now.
He was kind but his love is red now.
A red, that made this stoned heart of mine fall, maybe harder or deeper or maybe made it more softer than ever but never felt the way, he made me feel
I know, I burned or maybe burned cruelly his feelings, his love
His love, was different, different than those love birds
Who fought to win it but never sacrificed for it but he,
He let it burn, in that flames, I led him to
But to love him, wasn't hard, never been, but never easy
Been in love, since the day, I met him
His eyes, that met mine, his heavenly smile, that stole my heart, his beautiful face, that I fell for, his angelic voice, that drove my soul crazily oh God! I couldn't deny that I could blissfully die over them
But what i lost for the rest of my life, is him
I lost him, I lost him, I lost him and that's a tragedy but I know I had him for a while, for a while, he showed me my real world, felt so good yet was really wrong but I was drunk to stop yet my heart was awake cause it loved, it still loves him, the way he did and obviously, he still does but what sucks. is my self. that cannot let him know what I feel for him but I feel extremely sorry for own self for destroying a love, it needed so badly ..."

"I'm sorry Jay for everything, I have destroyed and I hope one day you forgive me.." Jenny whispered as a tear dropped down exactly upon that word, which was 'lost', it's colour mixed up to the word 'him'. It showed that even her tears admitted that she lost him forever but kinda stuck between those two words, she been trying to get over of...

She put her head down on the notebook, tried to close her eyes but all she saw his face, his crying face even with closed eyes, she immediately opened them "oh please go away, I can't bear this pain in my heart anymore... Please..." Said Jenny as she fell asleep with tears in her eyes

[next morning]

"Good morning sweetie, get up." Said Jenny' mom as she sook her

"Mom... Please let me sleep for a few minute more" said Jenny with sleepy voice

"Sweetie, it's almost 11:20 and why did you sleep on the chair, did you stay up late?" Asked her mom with rolled eyes

"Mom, please! Stop annoying me. I am already sick of myself, please just let me sleep!" Jenny shouted as she turned her head to right side

"You okay?" Asked her mom worriedly

Jenny ignored

"Ahm.. Okay fine." Said her mom as she walked out

"What happened to Jenny?" Her mom asked anna whilst trying to see what Anna's eyes were hiding

"Ah I don't know anything." Replied anna straightly

"How don't you? Have you seen her since morning? No. Do you even know her eyes were so swelled, it seems like she cried whole night" said her mom

"Mom, I don't know but i'll ask her." Said Anna

"Hmm.. You better. anyways I need to do grocery, so don't go anywhere okay? Just look after her." Said her mom

"Alri-i-ight! Mom but please come back soon, I need to go somewhere" said anna

"Oh to where exactly?" Her mom asked as she raised a eyebrow at her

"To nowhere mom! Can't you stop being always curious? " replied anna as she pouted