I know I'm alive since I'm breathing right now,
But I can't seem to make myself believe it somehow.
I know I'm getting things done because things are in order,
But to me time seems frozen and I'm not getting any older.
I know I'm eating because the dishes in the sink pile high,
But I'm feeling so hungry and don't know why.
I know I'm learning because I have the answers for the test,
But I feel like my head is empty and I get no rest.
I know I've been sleeping because I wake up to the alarm,
But I go through my days without energy or charm.
I know I love my family because I give them my time,
But I can't seem to find care in my heart I just don't give a dime.
I know I have a social life because people call me friend,
But after a day with all of them I feel lonely to no end.
I know I have plans because I have filled out applications,
But when it comes down to it I feel like I never left the train stations.
I know that I'm pretty because that's what people tell me,
But when I look in the mirror I still think I'm ugly.
I know that I'm funny because people laugh when I speak,
But I don't think I am in fact I think that I'm weak.
I know that I'm a Christian because I pray every day,
But I never hear back from God I think I've lost my way.
I know that I'm strong because I'm still moving on,
But I think down deep I know that that's wrong.
I know that I'm not alone because I'm constantly with people,
But I feel so alone it's possibly lethal.
I know that you left me but don't worry my heart is in tact!
But we both know that's a lie and I'm broken in fact.
