I want you to see,
But you just feel hurt by me.
There's no game,
But you feel like I'm not tame.
I know it's immature,
But it's the only way I can know you'll hear me for sure.
At first I didn't think it was meant to happen,
Now you've woken something in me as big and fierce as a dragon.
You said one thing,
I tried to get out of the ring.
We're not fair to each other,
I just feel like a bother.
Somehow I always ruin good streaks,
Somehow people lose interest when they see past my peaks.
Maybe I'm dramatic,
But every single thing is so emphatic.
My soul has been whipped out of recognition,
So even a gentle brush against it arouses my indignation.
Music used to be a luxury,
Now it haunts me.
Thought if I gave it time,
Everything would be fine.
And for me it worked,
But for you it caught and jerked.
You don't understand,
I'm trying not to hold on too tight but can't control my hand.
Distractions and infractions,
Gossip and ill wills contractions.
I'm wanted for treason there,
And I'm sure you'll buy into that which isn't fair.
Thought we'd sail to Spain,
Guess that was stupid of me to entertain.
Gave me your time,
I committed a crime.
Came to my senses,
You found your consensus.
Now I'm trying to breathe as the waves crash down,
And you're in the boat trying to decide whether or not to let us drown.
I'm cold to my core,
But I don't think you want to warm me anymore.
I'm sitting here wondering,
When I lost my swing.
Don't hold on if it's not what you want,
But I guess I'm content when they taunt.
I don't want a savior,
I want someone with trustworthy behavior.
Nothing adds up but at the same time it does,
I'd believe you if you said you lost interest 'just because'.
There's nothing unique about me,
And what was I'm not supposed to be.
It's not that I resent you,
I just wish you'd accept me but it's something you just can't do.
The water is freezing,
And I'm still believing,
That you'll pull me out,
But I don't think you can really hear me no matter how loud I shout.
We can't make something we don't both feel,
I just wish I understood why it stopped being real.
My luck is the worst,
I'm going to just break and burst.
I'll never hate you,
I just wanted you and that will remain true.
Take your time in line,
I'll be just fine.
I always am,
Need to find a rehabilitation program.
Trying to be patient,
But I was so content.
Briefly granted,
But you had me enchanted.
Now what am I supposed to do?
Gave myself in a different way to you,
And all I want to do is call and hear you say I'll be okay,
But we barely talk anymore anyway.
