Her Three Favourite Jacks

Ch 4: smoking butterflies

A tear runs down my face, "I don't need anyone" I shakily pull a small box out of my pocket and open it, I fumble about, trying to get a cigarette out of the box. Still shaking I put it between my lips and grab my lighter out of my black jeans back pocket. I couldn't quite light it, it's as if my fingers wouldn't work. I growl and throw the lighter away, I've only been here for half an hour and I already want to go home.
Suddenly my smoke was lit, I quickly puff on it and look at who lit it for me. My face quickly changed when I saw who it was " oh- it's just you" I grumble, breathing in more of the chemical
" that's not a good habit to be getting in to" Sean spoke
" so?" I look up at him "what do you care?"
" why are you so rude?" He asks, out of the blue, my eyes widen.
" I- uh" I can't speak, my head lowers. " I'm sorry. I'm not good with people. Never have been" I bite my lip
"Hey, it's okay" he smiles,
"All I've done is be mean to you, why are you still here" I look back up at him,
he shrugs " I'm not entirely sure myself, actually"
" felix done the same thing" I start to ponder
" what, buy you a drink, chased you outside and lit a cigarette for you?" He laughed a little,
"No" I smile at what he said, " stayed" my smile grows
" so she does smile!" Sean exclaims, I look away, playing a little.
" that wasn't a smile" I try to think of an excuse
" oh yeah? What was it?" He asks, laughing a little bit.
" a umm- it was a muscle twitch" I felt pretty proud of my self. Sean just stopped, I look up at him.
His lips met mine, only for a few seconds, I push him away quickly.
" the fuck man?!" My heads going nuts and my stomach feels like I've just been on a roller coaster
" it was just a muscle twitch"
'He's smooth'
" you don't just kiss people like that!!" I tried to be angry, but it didn't work. 'Why am I like this?!'