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02. naomi

when i was younger I remember
asking to my mother
"how far am I from going insane?"

of course she didn't know the answer
but I wonder how it feels
knowing answers to your questions

dear schizophrenia,
why me?
why anyone?

i went to the kitchen to take my pills
that i forgot about last night
i have so many questions
i wish clara existed
being a part of my disease
she must know the answer to everything.

i look at the window and before I swallowed the pill
this black girl was walking towards me
her body expression screaming lust
she was about to take off her dress
as she casually danced
and god i wanted her.

but i woke up.
it wasn't a vision.
it was just a dream.
and i was relieved.

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