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Emily's Pov
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Fuck. I'm starting to get dizzy again. I should've known not eating and cutting was a bad idea again.

Things can never get better for me. I'm tired of everything turning into shit. Can I do something right for once in my life? I'm such a fuck up.

My name is Emily. Emily Sharon. I'm 16. I have big brown eyes, long brownish-black hair, and a slightest slim body. People call me pretty all the time but I don't see it.

I have 5 sisters and 1 brother. I know it sounds like a lot but I love them all so much. My real dad disappeared before I was born and I have heard from him. My mom is currently engaged to a guy named Eric.

I know we sound like the perfect cute family but we're not. Nowhere close, we are slowly digging ourselves a hole. We are losing our house, Eric got fired and is going to jail.my mom works a lot but her pay check is still shit.

On top of everything I get bullied.. I know I'm pathetic. I can't even remember the last time I've eaten. There's no point when I just puke it up anyways. I know pathetic. But the food can go to my siblings since we don't have much anyways at this point.

I'm finally starting to see right again as I work on bandaging my arm. I never thought I'd get myself this low. It use to be a couple cuts a month and now it's a couple cuts a week. Maybe even day by day. It's just as bad as smoking. You can't stop, it becomes and addiction. Like you can't beat the monster inside of you.

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Derrick's Pov

I start gulping the next bottle of Jack Daniels. God i hate myself.

I wonder if this can kill me....

I've had 3 full bottles full so far, I know I'm going to regret it in the morning but I don't give a fuck anymore. Things aren't changing so neither am I. I have no one, I may as well drown out everything while I can.

Maybe someday I won't have to worry anymore....