I honest to god want to die. My life isn't horrible, though my upbringing was not the best. I love my family and my friends and most of all my girlfriend. She is the one reason why I'm probably not dead. I don't believe in suicide, I just really wanna die, but I don't want my girlfriend to feel like she didn't love me enough. I feel so much love from everyone but I hurt. It's probably something from my childhood or I was just born with depression. I don't know. For anyone who reads this I'm just writing to vent. By the way I'm only going to right when i need to vent.
