Darkest Part Of Me

Numb (Sebby's POV)

You know that dull feeling humans get? The one where you don't feel a thing. Just bitter numbness. The empty thoughts just cloud your mind. To the point of picking at your inner demons. Well, that's how I feel now. The harsh, boring numbness.

This all started, when Claude left me out of the blue. He didn't say a word about it. He just gathered his things and left. Yes, I noticed how distant he was becoming. But I thought it was the stress his family put on him. Since he is the new head of the arachnid clan. I didn't bother to get in his way. Why? Because I thought he loved me. I was wrong...

It turns out, I was just a mind game to him. Someone he could just pick on. To make himself feel better. His words, his scent, all of it. They weren't really for me. No, they're for his best friend. The man he cheated on me with. No shock there though.

It's been a week since he declared our break up. Still, I don't feel it. I don't feel the anger I'm supposed to. Nor the sadness my heart wants me to. I just feel completely numb. Numb enough to quit eating and sleeping. Yes, I know I'm a demon. We're supposed to feel nothing. But what they don't tell you in the religious books. We feel things too. Fear, sadness, etc. We just hide it better.

Since Claude left, our home just seems emptier. I took all our pictures down, and turned them to ash. My engagement ring? I melted it. Looking at it, just picks at my heart. I want to cry, but I can't yet. Something is telling me to wait. So, wait I shall.