Darkest Part Of Me

Sweet Dreams (Claude's POV)

Feeling free and not so confined. I feel much lighter away from Sebastian. He had a habit of getting so clingy. I hated being around that. Still, I didn't leave him in the best way possible. Word has spread that he's fallen ill. Do I care? Not particularly. But I know it is my fault.

Staring at the monster, that resides in me, in the mirror. I can feel what little emotion I have for him. Linger to the surface. Still, I shake my head. Refusing to let that side come out. Sebastian was nothing more, than a fine piece of ass. My current lover is all I need. At least, that's what I tell myself.

Sebastian stole away a small piece of me. I married him to make him happy. Since he came from such a broken home. I always felt sorry for him. At one point, I really did love the guy. But he grew so...Sad...I didn't know how to deal with that. So cheating was my escape. My way of leaving him alone. Wrong? Yes, but I don't care. He'll be fine without me.

I never wanted something serious to begin with. His whole attitude just seemed to change. Which at times, really got on my nerves. It drove me to the brink of wanting to smack him. But I swallowed my pride and eventually distanced myself. Sebastian will have to fight this alone. Relying on others is honestly a waste of time.

He can sleep in hell, and I'll be here to laugh. He never meant a thing. Why? Because he's too much like me. Scared to hear the truth. "Sweet dreams, pretty boy." I whisper to myself, directing the words to him.