Hello Mr Bad Boy

Dr. Jung

*Hana's Pov. *

What am I going to do? I sat on the floor in the bathroom. Leaning over the toilet, puking my guts out. I felt sick and I don't want to have my food coming up anymore. I'm sick of the taste of vomit and my throat is hurting. I can't handle it anymore. I just want to die. No, I don't want to die literally, just stop my vomiting. It's the worst. It's the worst thing to do at 4 in the morning.

I flushed and washed my mouth with water. I looked into the mirror. I looked like shit, swollen eyes from the crying, red face from the yelling and messy hair. I looked like I had a massive almost deadly flue. But I didn't have the flue, no. It was something else. I think you can guess what it was. Yes that's right, I'm pregnant. I haven't been to the doctor yet, or told Jungkook... I know I have to, but I just don't know how to say it. I mean it's not that hard but it's not that easy ether.

"How's it going?" I looked up at my mother who stood in her robe. I sighed as I started to walk towards her, but stopped as I felt the urge to vomit again. I ran to the toilet again and the fluid came out from my mouth.
"Not so good I see." I wanted to laugh. If I puke, I'm not okay. What in that don't you understand?
"It's okay honey. We're going to the doctors tomorrow. Should I tell Jungkook?" I looked up. Did I want my mother telling my boyfriend that I was pregnant? No, I wanted to tell him that myself off course.
"A-anniya... I tell him after the meeting..." I said as I looked down the toilet as I flushed. How would he react? We're only 16... What if I want to finish school? I can't do that with a kid... I don't know if I want to have it or not...

*The meeting with the doctor *

I was sitting on a chair in the white room alone, together with Dr. Jeon. My parents wasn't here, I said that I wanted to meet her myself. So here I was, alone with this doctor who was gonna test me with different stuff.
"Hana, can I call you that?" I nod as she asked. "I can see that you're very young, how old are you?" I shifted in my seat.
"I'm 16. I know it's young for me to have this child..." I said as I fumbled with my hands.
"It is. And it's a lot of pain in a pregnancy. But I'm not someone who would tell you to give the baby up, to have an abortion. I'm not a judger ether so whatever you like to do, I support you." She smiled as she talked. I looked up at her. Abortion? Keeping the baby? What do I want?
"So may I ask who the father is?" I looked up at her and smiled as I thought of Jungkook.
"My boyfriend, Jungkook. We're in the same class, and we would always fight and stuff. But some time ago we fell in love. After everything we've been through." I smiled as I talked. I really loved him.
"We where always mean to each other before, and now I don't seem to be able to be away from him without it feeling wrong." I could see that she was smiling too.
"May I ask why he isn't here today?" I looked up at her.
"I haven't told him that I'm with his child yet...I was thinking about saying it after I've talked to you." She nodded and clapped her hands.

"So, what will you do? With the baby." I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know... I'm just scared. Scared of everything..." I said as I scratched my arm. To be honest I wasn't scared, I was terrified.

"There's nothing to be scared about." Dr. Jeon said as she smiled and took my hands in hers. I tried to smile to her too, but it came out as a nervous-maybe-retarded-and-kill-you-smile.

"Be sure to tell the father before our next check up, okay?" I nod as I walk out the door.
"Thanks for everything Dr. Jeon." I said and waved to her.
"How'd it go?" Mom asked as soon as I closed the door to Dr. Jeon's office. I walked up to her and smiled.
"I'm pregnant... as we thought, or knew... But I still don't know if I'm ready to have a kid, yet..." I said and mom hugged my shoulders.
"It's okay, you don't have to decide right now. Have you thought of how to tell Jungkook?" I looked up at her and sighed. I shook my head in a no. I still didn't know how I would tell him this. Should I say it in a happy voice or not? Should I be happy? Should I be this nervous, or is it just normal to deliver this news to a 16-year-old boy, telling him he will be a father?