My Bullies... (Ethan and Grayson Dolan Fanfic )

Part 27

Savanah's POV:

When i got home i found my way on the roof of the Dolan's  house. I stole a beer from the fridge and i even hijacked some tequila. If i'm not going to cut i'm going to drink. The fact that the kids at school still hate me and now i have to go to therapy is eating away at me. I don't want to have to spill my back story out to some asshole with a college degree.  I want to forget all my pain and move on.

I unscrewed the beer and took a long relaxing sip. I watched as the sky faded into a deep purple. The color reminded me of the shade of my bruises. I slowly rolled up my pants to display my still healing scraped and black and blues. Looking down at my scared body i realized that maybe life isn't about avoiding bruises and maybe it's about collecting the scars. With that said i guess i succeeded in life, and if not i still did pretty well because all iv'e ever wanted in life was a group off friends who i can share my thoughts on life and my harsh past. A group of friends who i can love like family and name my kids after. A group of friends who take away the pain and replace it with passion and glory. I have that group of friends now. Jack, Ethan, Grayson, and as much as i hate to say it Aaron. 

I'm strong because i know what it's like to be weak. I keep up my guard because i know what it feels like to cry myself to sleep. So yeah, deep down i'm still sad but so rounding that sorrow is the love i have for my friends.

I picked up the bottle of beer again and then looked down at my bruises. I chucked the beer bottle off into the woods as far as i could and did the same with the tequila. From the roof i could hear it smashing on the ground. I smashed it like i plan to smash my fear. 

I climbed down from the roof and started running down the street. I ran into CVS and into the arts and crafts isle. I grabbed some water balloons, acrylic paint,  glitter, glue, poster board, markers, and silly string cans. I paid and ran back to the Dolan's house. I climbed in Ethan's window that i conventionally left open and sprawled my items out on the floor.

After and hour of work i had written a bucket list with the markers and poster board. It consisted of 100 things going from least important to most important:

1. Dye my hair something dramatic

2. Put soap in a public fountain

3. Swim with dolphins

4. Get a dog

5. Get a cat

6. Go back to Tacobell with Ethan and cause another scene

7. Kill Ryan (Jk don't do this)

8. Get a tattoo

9. Silly string the school

So on and so forth. These things are kinda silly but i will do them one day. The last 10 on the list mean the most though and are one hundred percent for real.:

90. Go back to LA and buy an amazing house to share with the guys.

91. Forgive Aaron

92.  Stand up to my parents

93.  Loose my virginity.

94. Get married to the love of my life

95. Be the reason someone lives for

96. Go to college and get my diploma  

97. Be friends with Jack, Ethan, and Grayson until i die

98. Have no more scars,not physical  ones because they never go away but  delete the mental ones. And wear my physical scars like a metal for  worlds best survivor.

99. Have a daughter and fill her with unconditional love. Make her feel wanted and love her. Never let her feel the way i did. Ever.

100. Fall in love so hard that it makes your heart hurt. Fall so hard you can feel it in your toes and all the way to your ear lobes. Fall so much that  just looking at that person makes all the scars, stress, sadness, and most of all  pain go away. Fall so hard that it makes all you've been threw worth it.

                 

I smiled as i read over my list. I took the poster paper and and hid it under Ethan's bed. I filled the water balloons with paint and glitter and  grabbed the silly string. Let's go vandalize Ryan's House!

Grayson's POV:

I was doing my home work when i  heard Ethan call my name. I walked into his room  and he was holding a large poster paper. His eyes were glossy as he handed it to me. 

After reading the list i discovered it was a bucket list. Savanah's bucket list. The last 10 were emotional. At least for me and Ethan. "100. Fall in love so hard that it makes your heart hurt. Fall so hard you can feel it in your toes and all the way to your ear lobes. Fall so much that just looking at that person makes all the scars, stress, sadness, and most of all pain go away. Fall so hard that it makes all you've been threw worth it."  i read aloud. "Grayson?" Ethan asked. I nodded telling him to go on. "Complete 100 for her. I know you love her just choose her." Ethan said sliding the list under his bed. "Ethan you know iv'e chosen her! I'm waiting for her to choose me!" i yelled not angrily butjust loudly. I was kind of hoping she heard that, bur she didn't. 

I walked back into my room and sat on my bed. "I'll make it all worth it Savanah.... i promise" i whispered and then fell asleep.

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A/N: Hey babes missed yah! How are you all doing?  I'm in a good today for really no reason but whatever! QOTD: What do you want to happen in the story? Love yah, bye :P