Emma
I remember it like it was yesterday
he held my hands on the bed
so I couldn't move them
strapped them to the railing of the bed took off my pants and said
(you better not tell anyone or I'll kill you you fat whore)
that changed my life forever
luckily he's in jail for it
now I count how many calories I eat
I try to have less than 500 calories a day I purge everything I eat
Last time I weighed myself
was yesterday I weigh myself everyday but I was 80 pounds my goal is 70
then lower then lower
I go to a therapy group with my brother he has a different problem
he's been drinking since dad raped me
Mom is forcing up to go
I'm 16 he's 22 but by law he has to go or he looses his 5 year old son for good instead of seeing him once a week
right now his ex girlfriend and his son biological mother is taking care of their son cause he's an alcoholic and because he can't even take care of himself
He is living with me and mom.
