Love and Regrets | Vkook

Love and Regrets

I remembered the day when you confessed to me.

I knew that this day would come, the day that I knew someday will happen that I feared the most, he said he loves me, all along and he just couldn't seem to hide it anymore. But why am I so scared?, I shouldn't be feeling this way, I'm not worthy to be loved, Taehyung is just confused, and this is just temporary, soon he'll get tired of me and the both of us will only get hurt, or rather only me, I shouldn't be affected. Have I already fallen to this guy?, I wish not. Because it scares me alot.

I know this is wrong, I should have not let this happen. If only I knew. If only. And now I'm here infront of him trying to convince him that he's only confused, we've only been friends for a whole school year, he can't be real. "I'm sorry but I don't think I can accept your love, I thought we already talked about this?" Yes we did, he knows everything about me but with a shook of his head I spaced away. Is it wrong? To avoid someone just because they loved you, that someone who's the only one who was there for you? Or because I'm scared? But I know it's not only me who'll get hurt in the end. I didn't want to hurt him too.

Day's I couldn't stand when I'm without you.

Since that day happened I never had a chance to talk to him neither had a chance to go near him. sometimes I tried to approach him but would always failed to do so, the half of me wants to talk to him, to apologize and explain everything, but the other has it's own pride, and I wish It would just disappear. I sigh as I layed myself on my bed. I missed him if I had to be honest, I couldn't stand a day without him making my day, I couldn't stand a day without him talking to me, I missed his voice, I missed his smile, I missed his touch the way he holds my hand, Everything about him is what I missed, I miss him, so much that I'm so desperate, desperate of breaking my walls. But there's one time I had a very small time of chances that I can talk to him, and I didn't lose that chance. I was about to open my mouth to speak but he cut me of, saying that everything's alright now, that I don't have to worry about anything anymore. I sigh once more as i felt a tint of guilt inside me. Maybe my thoughts for him were all wrong, he's a good guy and nothing more. Maybe it's just me. And yes, it was just me. Taehyung, what have you done to me?

When an unexpected visitor came to ruin my life again, and you were just there to save me. Again.

Everything is back to normal like it used to be, him taking me to school everyday and after that he would always take me to the nearest coffee shop and walk me home, sometimes on weekends he would always ask me to hang out with him, a friendly date to be exact on different places. And right now I'm walking with him at the park side by side as I think of a thought. Was this really just a friendly date for him?, does he still wants me?, Is he doing this just because he's my friend and nothing more? Or was it really something more?. But I shouldn't mind anymore, at least he's here, that's what I wanted right? To have him as a friend. Yeah. Taehyung then let me sit on one of the benches said that he'll be right back to buy some food, so there I sat as I looked around and admired the perfect view of the park, the sun was shining and the clouds were blue, it was a perfect day but someone had to ruin it. "Jungkook" he called me, there sat a guy who is very familiar to me from the past, the one who turned my world upside down, the one who made me believe from all of his lies, the one who changed my world, the reason why I have this unbreakable wall, The reason why I hate to love anymore, The one who torn me apart, the one I have loved before, The one who left me out of blue, the one who breaked me. My ex boyfriend. And he's the reason why I'm afraid to love Taehyung. And now here beside me was the guy from the past who left me, now saying sorry and trying to get me back, I had the urge to punch him but I can't, my blood is boiling and I so want to yell at him but I can't, I just can't. I noticed Taehyung called me from the side giving me the crossed eyebrows as he saw my Ex. I looked at the two and I can already feel the tension between them as they looked at once each other's eyes. "Jungkook, who's this?" My ex Jimin asked, I looked at Taehyung as he went on my side holding my hands. "I'm his boyfriend"