Love and Regrets | Vkook

Love and Regrets

I remember the pretend game, and that made me realise that maybe it's more beautiful when it's real.

After that meeting with my Ex boyfriend Jimin, me and Taehyung talked about it, he kept on saying sorry to me that because of what he said that he's my boyfriend, we had to pretend that we're really a couple since we found out that Jimin had transfered to our school, we also found out that he too used to visit the cafe that we always hang out. We arraigned everything all we have to do now is to be goodat pretending. But Jay told me not to worry about him, because he'll make it real. So we continued on pretending, but Jimin told me that he still wouldn't give up, he's so stubborn, why did I even fall in love with this guy before?. Sometimes when Me and Taehyung are having a hang out day, I can feel that someone was watching us from afar and that made me realise that Jimin had been stalking us, so there's never been a normal day of us not pretending, he can be anywhere. And it felt real, and sometimes I liked it, but I know we're just pretending, and that made me realise that maybe, just maybe it's more beautiful when you felt true love on it, when it's real and no one's feelings were pretending. And I can feel it.

It was our fake Monthsary day today, I actually forgot about it but when I saw a flower Inside my locker that says "Happy Monthsary" on it, I felt guilty from not remembering. I saw Taehyung at my side as he smiled at me and held my hand. "We're going out later".

Fake.

School has ended and Taehyung took me out to the park, he said he has a surprise for me. I smiled as I saw a picnic basket with red checkered mattress neatly placed down near beside the tree. I smiled as Taehyung started to prepare everything, I another smile plastered on my face as the thought of him preparing all these food, he took my hand and let me sit on the mattress and started eating.

Pretends.

We watched as the sunset still sitting on the red checkered mattress. I leaned my head on Taehyung's shoulders, it's so beautiful, I kept on admiring the sun as it set as I can already feel my eyes got heavier. "Sleep" he said, and so I closed my eyes.

"I love you" he said.

Lies.

He knows Jimin is watching right?.

"And it's true"

The day I finally realised my Love for you.

It was another perfect day, Taehyung decided to take me out of town to their family beach resort, there no one can follow us, no fake, no pretends, no lies. I sat on the sand on that cold breezy night. The breeze lightly blew my hair from side to side as I looked up watching the stars from above as it shines. I remembered the day when I first watched them talking to the phone with Taehyung trying to calm me down. I sigh, what did I ever do to deserve someone like him?. I admit that I think of him like every single time. The way he tells his funny jokes that would always makes me laugh, the way his voice works without a crack, so soothing so warm, the way he calls my name without me failing to look back, the way he smile at me that forms a perfect shape that always makes my heart flutter. His words of healing that I want, that I need. The way he arranged his glasses, eveything about him was perfect, the way he shows his love for me is perfect, even though I always push him away all he does is to step a little closer. He's always been there when I needed him. Sometimes I would always ask myself that, why am I so scared to Love him?. Do I love him?. And that's when I realised that I had already accepted the fact that I've fallen in love with Taehyung. And yes, I admit it.

"Jungkook?" He called me.

"Yeah?"

"What are you doing here?, it's cold, we should get inside" he said in a worried tone.

"Can you...can you stay here?"

"Yeah, sure"

I leaned my head on his shoulders like I always do when we're on our fake dates, the same heart beat I felt from him that I'm already used to. I heard him sigh, the peaceful sound of the waves stopped as soon as he spoke.

"Are we still pretending?"

"Are you still pretending?"

And with a shook of my head I can already see the happiness from his eyes as it glooms, I pulled him into a kiss, the first of many. And I swear this is true.