affection

mad

" how can you make me feel this way? so vulnerable and helpless. so weak at the sight of seeing you for the first time. you drive me mad. "

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I couldn't believe what I was feeling. Jae was kissing me! Me, the girl who was basically the mother figure for her siblings. Me, the girl who love k-pop and Yaoi manga so. Me, the girl who is one of the ultimate weeaboos. Me, the girl who is very sarcastic. Me, the girl who doesn't have a clue as to why he might be kissing me unless to get into my pants. Me, the cautious girl. Me, the girl who your parents have warned you about. Me, the reckless girl. Me, the clumsy girl.

How dare he.. The golden boy. The boy who's skilled with not only academics, but also sports. The boy who every parent wants their daughter to marry. The boy who every father wants their son be like. The boy who is innocent. The boy who has never laid a hand on me. How could he...

I didn't know what to do before slowly succumbing to his advances. I felt weak. But weak, in a different way. The kiss was slow and gentle, nothing like what most of the yaoi mangas that I have read are like. I felt like my legs were about to give in at any time, but he was the pole that was holding me up. I can't say that I didn't want this to stop. I actually... Liked it.

I liked the feeling of his warm, soft lips onto my slightly chapped ones. I liked the way that I fit into his arms. I liked the feeling of warmth being spread throughout me. I liked the taste of his strawberry lollipop that he most likely ate earlier. I liked the sweet taste of him. I was about to devour him, if it weren't for the sound of people whistling.

I pulled away first, panting. I felt oddly warmer and knew that my cheeks were probably already red. Jae just looked into my eyes, no sign of embarrassment, but there was a slight blush on his cheeks.

"What is it?" I demanded, trying to look very intimidating. But this only made Jae laugh. The small mole near his upper lip was turned into a dimple as he grinned.

"Nothing, I just missed you so much," he said, snuggling against me.

"I thought we weren't kissing in 8th grade."

"Not on the lips, at least.

"You didn't ask me out."

"We still had that sort of relationship though."

"But I never knew you felt like that for me.. I felt the same," I whispered softly, so that he wouldn't catch all of what I had said. He just hummed happily in response, not even bothering to carry with the argument.

"You're such a hypocrite. Don't leave me again or else I'll mess with your crap at your house." I held onto his black jacket, which was unzipped, shivering slightly. He pulled me closer into his jacket, making me warmer.

"I know, my love." He pecked my forehead. "Now, let's get you home."

* * *

I had my arms wrapped around him tightly as he drove to my house. I then got off, trying to fix my hair when I took off the helmet. Even though we were childhood friends, I still felt self-conscious around Jae.

Jae just chuckled softly, shaking his head at me. "Still the same as always," he whispered in my ear while I glared at him.

"You're the same when you left too. Still a dip-" Jae then covered my mouth when my 13 year old sister came running towards me.

"Aika!!" She wrapped her arms around me, tightly enough to squeeze the living hell out of me.

"Asami.." I just shook my head at her. "I can't... Breathe," I gasped aloud.

"Oops, sorry," she said, giving me a small look of guilt before letting go of me. "How was your day today?" She eyed Jae-In suspiciously.

"Good," I responded back, before elbowing Jae-In in the side, making him groan. "This is Jae-In. Do you remember him, Asa?"

Asami nodded, her light brown bob bouncing up and down. "Yes! He's your boyfriend~" She teased, a small smirk on her lips. She had a mischievous glint in her amber eyes.

I just blushed, not knowing what to say. Yeah, Jae had kissed me... And he told me what he felt about me.... And I told him... But are we really dating? What if he actually has another girl back in Korea...

So many thoughts crossed my mind at that one second before I heard Jae say something that would forever change my future.

"Yes. Aika's only mine. And I'm Aika's." He wrapped an arm around my waist, making my cheeks grow hot. "I'm her boyfriend, do you have any concerns about that?"