Poisonous Love

Going home

"Lily, Lily wake up" I whispered shaking my friend. She groggily sat up and she looked at me, "why did you wake me up in this god forsaken hour?" She asked, "I've done something horrible" I said and new tears ran down my cheeks. Lily dragged me up on her bed and hugged me, "now tell me what you did" she ordered. I looked at her guilt fully and started telling her "so, I lost my V-card last night-" then she cut me off and said "no, you didn't" "yes I did thank you very much, so I woke up next to a guy and it was Sirius. I lost my virginity to Sirius freaking Black and then I took his memory, is that bad?" I asked unsure while her mouth hung open. " not only did you loose your virginity, but you did it to him?" She whisper shouted "yeah" I said hanging my head in shame, "chill a little, I think it's a good thing that you took his memory, James wouldn't be so happy if he found out that you slept with his friend, he even sees him as a brother" she said and I felt better. "Thanks Lily" I said and walked away to deal with the hangover that was killing me.

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I dragged Lily into an empty classroom and looked at her, I used some none verbal magic and cast a spell so no one could hear what we were saying, "Lily, I think I'm pregnant, I've been having morning sickness and I've been eating more. I've made the arrangements with Dumbledor, I'm graduating in two days" I said "but that's when the winter break is starting" she said. "I know, I'm not coming back. I'm going to get my own place, get a job and raise my baby" I said determined and Lily sighed. "James and I will visit you during the breaks, you know, maybe it wasn't such a good idea to take away Sirius memory" she said "why wouldn't it be a good idea?" I asked "because maybe you could be a happy family" she said. "Okay I'm done, you said it was a good idea, I'm sticking with that, goodbye Lily" I said walking away. It seems like that was almost all I did; walking away.
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I had finally graduated, fine, I didn't get to do it with my friends but I did it. I walked on the train and sat down alone in a compartment, I locked it, soundproofed it and started blasting music in the whole thing. Suddenly the door was slammed open and there stood Riley holding her hands over her ears. I turned the music off and she started yelling "what is this rumor about you not returning to Hogwarts next term!" I leaned back and looked her in the eyes "well it's not a rumor, and I have already graduated" I said "you could at least have told me, I mean we would have thrown the biggest party in Hogwarts history" she said "I think I did the party thing earlier this year and I wouldn't have been able to drink anyway" I said before I had time to think, "no way, your parents have forbidden you to drink?" She said gasping "no..." I muttered and she looked at my face to my stomach and back up again, "the princess of Slytherin, Jasmine Potter, Pregnant!" She squealed and I looked at her, "yes, and don't tell anyone, only Lily and my parents know" I explained. "What about the father?" She asked and I felt uncomfortable to lie to her "I don't know who he is I slept with someone the same night as the rave and I don't remember" I lied straight to her face and judging by her sad face; she believed me.

A while after Riley had left I was met with James rushing in and he looked at me then my stomach and up to my face again, "you're pregnant?" He asked softly and I whispered a weak "yeah" he didn't ask more but just hugged me. "You know, my belly is more visible in wolf form" I said suddenly, "what!" He screeched and I looked at him funny "you know, white wolf" I clarified and shifted, my baby belly was much more visible as my white wolf and he looked at me. "You're an animagus" he said in awe, I shifted back and looked at him "your girlfriend is one too, she's a really proud doe" I said and leaned back in the seats. He excused himself and probably went to find his girlfriend. I laid a hand on my stomach and sighed, I going to have a baby me or Sirius running around soon.